Originally Posted by
OmnicronPercei8
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I am completely split on how to feel about you anymore. I want to love you forever and wish that you would come back to me but I want to (and at at times seem to be) get over you so I can be released from this torture. I am mad at you for the way you broke it off with me and for your brevity in choosing someone else, but it had been coming for a while and I, like you was holding on to a possible future only speckled with dust of hope and not the actual changes necessary to give us that future. If you ever came back to me I would say that you broke my heart in a million tiny pieces and how could I ever forgive you for what you've done, but then I realize that we would have never had lasted on that path and it was the trauma of the break up which forced me to realize how I was not meeting your emotional needs.
The only reason I say anything to you here is because it helps get it off my chest. I don't think you care as your feelings have been transferred to another. And you have downplayed what we had to make walking away the safer bet. If you had stayed single I have no doubt we would have been back together by now. I miss you so very much and I hate myself for it at times. I hate that I am so conflicted in my feelings toward you, but in the end there is one constant. You are gone and there is no amount of self reflection, discovery, or clarity that is going to change any of that.