How can it be I feel COMPLETELY over you one minute and then pining for you the next? Weird...
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How can it be I feel COMPLETELY over you one minute and then pining for you the next? Weird...
"Never mind, i'll find, someone like you. I wish nothing but the best for you too. Dont forget me, i beg".
Why did I ignore the warning signs? I knew we were incompatible months ago. I knew YOU were incompatible to be with. You claimed to want power at work and be dominated at home and I like equal power in a relationship so I wouldn't grant you that. You weren't even happy with me keeping you in check from time to time. At first you said you were and liked being "put in your place" but after a while you you just wanted to fight over every little thing and then say you were over the drama of fighting! Well honey, 9/10 times you caused the drama! I wish when I had broken it off with you in early March I had not given you another chance, but I told myself that I wanted to exhaust any possibility that we would work before walking away and the reason that I sit hurt today is because I believed in myself. Why was I so blind to what was obvious to me in the first place? You're not good for me. I pray that I'll believe myself when I say all this now that I've finally come back to the truth. I pray that you never come back so I won't have to make a decision that I feel I'll always regret no matter which way I choose. I pray that if that happens my decision will be to tell you we are a waste of time.
why do i still think about you? I really hate you
Was that really the only time you cheated?
Did you really not flirt and not cheated any other time in your weekly trips? Hard to believe.
Every time you were on your weekly trip our communication was always fading.
And all the fighting. All the aggressiveness. It was all planned. You would just wear me off with fights, so I don't have any power left to start a new fight when you behaved like a selfish spoiled b*tch.
And to add something more. Last time we talked you said that you don't want to talk to me again because I am not a "good friend".
How did you ever got the idea that I wanted to be your friend? Why would I want to be friends with a person like you? I was simply obsessed with you and couldn't find the strength to leave you. As simple as that. I would never ever want to be friends with a person like you...
"You just had a rebound. Don't get me wrong rebounds, can be fun and a nice distraction. But when they're over you're left thinking about the girl you really like, the one that broke your heart." - Jim Halpert (The Office) :)Quote:
Originally Posted by Cerby [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I don't love you anymore, and I don't want you anymore.
I just wanted to tell you.
Up yer clacker :)
LEAVE ME ALONE! Stop sending me random anonymous bullshit texts! You made your feelings about me exceptionally clear in your last message to me. Remember the paragraph about all the lovely women you were going to be enjoying? Go play games with them instead of me. I'm not interested in your manipulations. You only "loved" me when you felt you were controlling me and I was captured under your spell.
The wrapping was lovely but the gift was shit.
Since we broke up i have met up with an old friend a few times. I think i am beginning to like him and i think he likes me too. I am by no means over you and i am not ready for another relationship just yet, but if you are going to change your mind, your time is running out...
After recounting a story on one of our fights that sticks out most in my mind I found the email you sent apologizing the next day. You said so many things through the letter (and later by chat) like you had been waiting for someone like me and it was your past insecurities and baggage that would convince you to try to push me away. You also said that if I was ready to end it you would probably never truly get over me as I was your one true love. It's funny how just a few months passed and you got over me within a one week period when you were away on business and distant the whole time. Now you're in love with someone else and I don't think you even recognize the feelings you had for me.
During that chat I told you I would in no way ever break up with you by text, chat, email, or phone. I view it as cowardly and it leaves the other partner with no sense of closure. You told me you admired that and then you went and broke up with me by email.
I am not using any of this as ammo to get over you although it helps. I am building up a case against you should you ever come back. Having your second chance will be as unobtainable as you were for me when you let me go so easily. Peace out biotch!
Three things I miss most about you:
1. The way you used to look at me
2. Your bellybutton
3. The smile on your face
Three things about you I don't miss at all:
1. Your snoring. That's it.
I seem to miss you at the most bizarre times.... like now. Keep your chin up.
Hey, buddy.
I got your message, you know. I get all of them, and it seemed to me that they were hurting less and less. My stomach still flips every time I hear your voice on the other end of the line, but I have deleted all the other voicemails. I see your name on my phone and I slide it back into my pocket, even though it still makes me cry.
This message, though. It almost did me in. Your voice cracked halfway through, even after all this time. Why are you doing this to yourself? You know you wouldn't be happy if I came back. You loved HER, I know you did. But that little stutter still breaks my heart all over again. Please, please, please. Just go away. It will work out better for both of us. You need to leave before you can be happy.
i feel kinda miss you a little bit today when i get home, i miss those phone calls from you. Well, it will pass anyway.
I miss you, but i HATE you, i will hate you all of My Life.
I am miles away from you and running further all the time. Please let me have the will to never look back.
"yeah I was a ratbag"
What? , was that like an apology or something?
Steady on, next minute you might actually use the sorry word and really freak me out. Well thanks for at least trying to be half sincere
Oh well i'm fixing my phone alone and i miss u again, nah... but maybe it's just PMS.
u look like shit.... your boyfriend looks like hes got down syndrome.. Hes got less teeth than a jack-o-lantern
Hahaha i Like it, :-P.Quote:
Originally Posted by DarkHelmet82 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
LOL (isn't it weird how there is minumum characters for a message?)Quote:
Originally Posted by DarkHelmet82 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Hey, ex , you made me stronger by breaking my heart.
Help me understand something, -----,
How do you go from believing you love someone to never wanting to see them again?
How could you just sever yourself like that? How could you???
free up some inbox space tremolo, I have a story that you'll enjoy in a tragic way.
Done. Didn't know it was full.
Send away, as long as this story won't make me more depressed.
... But I want my money back....
*sigh* Tough day. I am mad at you today. Hurry up and bugger off outta my mind so I can have some peace.
I never like using this word for someone who I once gave all my heart to, but you really were a 'bitch'!
I think it's crazy I was out of town when you wanted me to come home to you, maybe it's like a higher power telling us we are better off without each other. And baby, if you're trying to catch me vulnerable, don't drunk call/text me at 9 pm on a Saturday night, that is too early for me to be drunk and emotional. Stay strong!
I hate you because you are always getting away with things and I have to face the consequences! That's just not fair!
And how can you go on as if nothing had happened? As if we'd not been together for 8 years? As if these years never existed?
How can you act so surprised when I ask you if I can rely on something you say when I never could rely on anything you said when we still were together?
How can you now act as if you were a hero just because you gave me your half of the first installment of the money that we owe the bank (there are 6 more years of debt-paying left!!!) and forget that you left me here with more than just debts, but also an old house with a leaking roof and in desperate need of renovation in a place we moved to only because of you and 3 dogs (2 of which are difficult to handle just in case you forgot...) to take care of?
We always knew that this was too much to handle for one person alone, we could only do it together and still you just left!
And when the brokenhearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be
I have put so much thought over the past two months on how you possibly don't care what my feelings are toward you. If you don't care, you probably didn't even notice that I was able to not even make eye contact with you today while you spoke at our staff meeting and avoided looking at you the rest of the time. I thought I saw you looking my way a couple of times out of my peripheral vision but honestly I don't care if you were or weren't. Over the past weekend my friends have all told me what they really thought of you and I've been able to air out the problems I had with you that I once was willing to push under the rug. You have some despicable traits that I was able to put up with because of love or co-dependance and there are moments I am actually glad that someone else is putting up with your crap. I am still physically attracted to you though and not even a week plus of not seeing you has changed that. I truly hope you don't try to hook me again starting off with a sexual relationship because I am still weak to you in that respect.
Today will be day 4 of me not crying. Thank you for everything you have done, even though you left me, you have still made a massive positive impact on my life in a weird way because I have learnt who I am. You have made me so much stronger than I ever thought I could be. You have been the most important person in my life- I truly hope you are happy x
Day 10 of complete and utter no contact. Yes folks, in four months it’s the first time it's been that long since there was communication. Today is also my first day of speaking with a therapist. My mind believes that you aren't good for me and understands that if I was truly getting what I needed/wanted out of the relationship I wouldn't feel so upset or crazy about what happened. But my heart remembers the good times and how you made me feel, the way you looked at me..the way you held my hand. I'm starting to care less though...so I guess that's a good sign. Sadly I know you will always be a part of me because I am who I am today partly because of you and that will never change. I can't say that I'm glad this all happened, but I am glad that I had the experiences with you because that's what life is about...experiences. If we didn't have them...even the incredibly hard ones....life wouldn't be worth living. As obnoxious as it is to say this or even hear this...lesson learned so I know for the future.
I know eventually you'll contact me because I know that you still care about me...but I don't know if I can or should respond. The last couple of conversations were really bad...mostly because of me being frustrated and hurt and you couldn't deal with that. So I don't know if I want to talk again...but I bet you are already thinking about me because you figured I would have caved by now and contacted you. I'm so proud of myself that I haven't. I'm not even contacting you next week for your birthday. You made the choice of not wanting me in your life...and this is me not being in your life. I will still want to vomit and hyperventilate if I find out that you are dating someone, but that's part of life. You are allowed to. I guess I'm just bitter because you always said it was never about finding someone else...just about figuring yourself out. But clearly to you..that means dating someone else. You're such a liar...and not just to me...but to yourself and I think that's the biggest sadness. I know you'll regret this. But it’s no longer my place to care. So today...starting with my therapist appointment....I'm letting you go. So that when the time comes that you want to talk...I'll be ready and emotionally removed to make the right choice.
You will not torment me anymore...you will not make me sad....i deserve SO much better than this.....I am worth it.
Did you first see your boyfriend on Cops?,
Or at a Star Trek convention or on top?,
Of your best friend or maybe at Wendy's?,
Workin' third shift late New Years' Eve?,
Does he live under a bridge scare kids and kill squirrels?,
Does he do kegstands until he hurls?,
Could a blind man mistake his complexion for Braille?
Does he have time to sit around and wait for the mail?
i REALLy hope I don't meet your current boyfriend... I will seriously **** him up
Sometimes love actually isn't enough.