I want to Kill my exes. Literally.

hahha, this is funny, we all do. We all have a dream where we get to kill some of our exes and some few others, however shouldn't we focus more on our active live instead on our inactive version of our life ? for example i like reading different websites, i like to improve myself. Regarding ex-gf hmmm, it is a bit obvious we are all connected somehow, i think you should join solomon-layb.com and keep your mind aside, killing is not good... what do you think ? should we start killing eachother ? :))

Are you sure you don't have a personality disorder? Entertain the idea that these disorders are not just on the DSM because psychiatrists want to keep themselves 'entertained'. I'll break it down:

a) what do the responses on here tell you thus far? Do they tell you that you're unique and the only woman to be hurt by men? No.
b) are they telling you that your emotional response to being hurt is abnormal? Yes.
c) are they telling you that having a few 'I wish he would get hit by a bus!' thoughts are normal after getting hurt? Yes. BUT plotting to kill and having these thoughts become routine, detailed and all-consuming is not.

So you've invested a few months - you seriously think you've 'wasted' your life? I invested 8 years into a man literally changed overnight; that's 8 years, not 8 months. I have never fantasized about killing him for a second; at worst, I wished him bad karma because despite everything else, he also left me in debt. But such is a life.

Your coping mechanisms are piss poor. Seek help - people with BPD often report similar feelings to you when it comes to hurt/rejection so don't be so quick to discount everything 'psychiatric'. If you were reacting normally, everyone who has posted thus far would not be secretly (or not so secretly) thinking "this chick is insane!".

Most of us get hurt in relationships - many times with varying degrees of severity. You can either let these feelings cripple you, land you in jail and turn you into someone who never has another relationship again (which at your age, is a very long time) OR you can get help and recognize that it's not typical to feel this intensely over a few short-term relationships. It's up to you.

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You are so right. I am not a professional just giving my view. You are not a professional and no one else here is either. Point made.

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You wouldn't know whether or not I or someone else here is or isn't a professional. My point was that you - the person making psychic assumptions about the OPs homicidal statements - isn't in a position to make psychic assumptions about the OPs homicidal statements.

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My whole point with what I posted, is being negative doesn't influence a person to get help. Being on someone and pushing them down more, DOES not make them get help. So if you feel the OP needs help, be encouraging for it and give as much positive influence you can, otherwise you will make this person take off and who knows what could happen.

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Not true. In psychological therapy milieus, the good cop / bad cop model works wonders. Sometimes the truth is negative and it still needs to be stated, to help someone heal. Speaking for myself only, there's nothing I wrote to the OP - negative or not - that wasn't appropriate and potentially very helpful. It's never going to sound like peaches and cream when you hold up a mirror to someone and tell them they need to get psychological help because they sound mentally ill. And yet that needs to be said.

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The best advice is from those who have suffered through something, and managed to survive.

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And some of the worst advice comes from people who suffered through something and managed to survive. That's because "just surviving" isn't necessarily enough to keep that person from projecting their distorted ideas onto a fellow sufferer. Like you, overly-protecting the OP, when what she really needs to hear is the truth about how slashing people with box cutters and getting off on death-torture fantasies means she needs to either walk into a psychiatrist's office immediately, or go down to the police station and empty out her thoughts there.

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Originally Posted by LifeInflux [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

IMeanwhile, I think Namemyname may have been a little judgmental with the psychotic bit

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I believe I called her "psychopathic", to be sure. Psychopaths are the ones who commit violent crimes and have zero remorse.

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Originally Posted by Villo [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

the person making psychic assumptions about the OPs homicidal statements - isn't in a position to make psychic assumptions about the OPs homicidal statements.

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Hilarious that you come here trying to sound so informed and intelligent, yet you seem to think that diagnosing psychological disorders makes one "psychic". :D

Abject fail, dear.

Paging Mistress Cleo!!!

Well, I stepped away for a bit, and I understand what is being said and I understand what I was trying to say. That is all that really matters at this point in time and will matter 5,000 posts from now. Taking a step back and rereading this is just funny now. :/ I am agreeing to disagree and hope that everyone else on here is doing well with their own personal lives. Flux, Thanks for understanding what I was trying to say, and when I look at how you put it, I get it. Your right. Mr. Monocle. :P

InternalBleed, I'm guessing you're a bunny boiling, psycho, like Jodi Arias..which would explain a lot. You're probably amazing in the sack, but have nothing else to offer in any other area in life.

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InternalBleed, I'm guessing you're a bunny boiling, psycho, like Jodi Arias..which would explain a lot. You're probably amazing in the sack, but have nothing else to offer in any other area in life.

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Judging by the ridiculous amount of time you've spent on the internet, based on the number of posts you've made on this forum alone...you must have so much to offer the world.....LOL, nah! XD
Who the hell has almost 3,000 posts and can't even tell trolling when they see it?
You guys (in general) aren't a very clever bunch, are you?


Since some of you people seem to have been genuinely alarmed, I'll spell out the obvious for you:

1. No, I have not been planning on killing anyone. And even if I were, if I was stupid enough to admit it in detail over the internet in a post with my IP address attached to it...well, I probably wouldn't have been very successful at it anyway, now would I?

2. No, I didn't cut anybody with a damn box cutter. No, I didn't break any of my stuff: I like my stuff. I'm sure you get the point.

3. Some of you need to chill, LOL. This is the internet.

It's good to know my acting skills are so good that even people who can't actually see or hear me will believe the most bullcrap story ever, though. Do you think I should pursue a career in acting? I've thought about it sometimes.

Anybody with half a brain cell should've been able to tell that this was some bullsh*t trolling...so either you've all got pea brains, or I'm just a really good actor/storyteller, LOL.

LOL, in all seriousness: I troll occasionally, since it's mildly entertaining to make up the weirdest sh*t and have people eat it up. But anyway, I've got better things to do now...unlike some people, I won't be having time to accumulate several thousands of posts on here...LOL. This is enough for me.

Peace out, everyone :)

Har de har har!

If you are a troll, then I hope you know that's still a type of mental illness. When your need for attention, shock value and some twisted kind of "power" isn't filled by strangers online, you will turn to higher pursuits in your real life. To even concoct such violent visuals is still psychopathic within itself. Healthy, adjusted people simply don't think this way. So, you're not any better off psychologically than when you were planning murders. In many ways, you're worse, actually.

So, jokes on you, babe! You're just as sick as you were 15 minutes ago. ;)

Totally irrelevant post there Bleed, nobody here cares whether your post was real or imagined, you're damaged and need help either way.

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Har de har har!

If you are a troll, then I hope you know that's still a type of mental illness. When your need for attention, shock value and some twisted kind of "power" isn't filled by strangers online, you will turn to higher pursuits in your real life. To even concoct such violent visuals is still psychopathic within itself. Healthy, adjusted people simply don't think this way. So, you're not any better off psychologically than when you were planning murders. In many ways, you're worse, actually.

So, jokes on you, babe! You're just as sick as you were 15 minutes ago. ;)

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Trolling makes me worse off than than I'd be if I were actually contemplating murder? I shall remember that nugget of internet wisdom.

All horror writers and directors must be "psychopathic", too: Somebody has to come up with some pretty sick and horrifying visuals in order to write that stuff, after all. You should tell the guy who wrote the SAW movies that he's psychopathic: I'm sure you can make him realize that he must have a serious problem...why not write to Stephen King, too, while you're at it...they must all be sick with those kind of imaginations...LOL.

Also, approximately how many people have you helped with your gift for expertly diagnosing people over the internet? Just wondering.

O, wise sages of loveforum.net, nothing gets past you guys :)
Carl Jung should bow to you guys...lol...you were all on a psychoanalytical prowess before I told you it was all nonsense.

Anyway, I'm seriously not reading anymore of these BS internet psychological theories, LOL. You guys have fun continuing to come up with them, but frankly, this is getting old. Bye :) *Log out*

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All horror writers and directors must be "psychopathic", too: Somebody has to come up with some pretty sick and horrifying visuals in order to write that stuff, after all. You should tell the guy who wrote the SAW movies that he's psychopathic: I'm sure you can make him realize that he must have a serious problem...why not write to Stephen King, too, while you're at it...they must all be sick with those kind of imaginations...LOL.

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The difference being I'm pretty sure James Wan and Stephen King didn't go around fantasising that they actually were Jigsaw/Carrie before they picked up the pen but what can I say, clearly we're in the presence of a genius (you're still logged on btw).

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The difference being I'm pretty sure James Wan and Stephen King didn't go around fantasising that they actually were Jigsaw/Carrie before they picked up the pen but what can I say, clearly we're in the presence of a genius (you're still logged on btw).

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LMAO.;)

I loved Stephen King back in the day!! Is Jigsaw the SAW movies guy? Those are hideous, too. :)

I feel really badly for the OP. I just feel total pity. :(

The real irony, is that they think they were so clever "making this up", but they fail to see that needing to do it at all, crafting the story, engaging in it, trying to get the big "gotcha" at the end...all really falls flat. In another 2 minutes, we won't even think about the OP, and they'll go back to being the total nothing they are in their real life.

If you are in such bad shape you need to create online personas to "fool" strangers and feel superior or like you received attention, that really is sick. To come up with this kind of story is even sicker.

Such a sad cry for help. There really are some very severely damaged people out there. :(

OP - I still hope you get professional help. You need it more than you realize.

Those self righteous, thousand line posts have always annoyed me.

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Originally Posted by InternalBleed [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

Judging by the ridiculous amount of time you've spent on the internet, based on the number of posts you've made on this forum alone...you must have so much to offer the world.....LOL, nah! XD
Who the hell has almost 3,000 posts and can't even tell trolling when they see it?
You guys (in general) aren't a very clever bunch, are you?


Since some of you people seem to have been genuinely alarmed, I'll spell out the obvious for you:

1. No, I have not been planning on killing anyone. And even if I were, if I was stupid enough to admit it in detail over the internet in a post with my IP address attached to it...well, I probably wouldn't have been very successful at it anyway, now would I?

2. No, I didn't cut anybody with a damn box cutter. No, I didn't break any of my stuff: I like my stuff. I'm sure you get the point.

3. Some of you need to chill, LOL. This is the internet.

It's good to know my acting skills are so good that even people who can't actually see or hear me will believe the most bullcrap story ever, though. Do you think I should pursue a career in acting? I've thought about it sometimes.

Anybody with half a brain cell should've been able to tell that this was some bullsh*t trolling...so either you've all got pea brains, or I'm just a really good actor/storyteller, LOL.

LOL, in all seriousness: I troll occasionally, since it's mildly entertaining to make up the weirdest sh*t and have people eat it up. But anyway, I've got better things to do now...unlike some people, I won't be having time to accumulate several thousands of posts on here...LOL. This is enough for me.

Peace out, everyone :)

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AKA a hipocrit.... confesses to trolling, yet tells others to get a life,more or less ? mmmm o.k

Lol, What a ****ing tard. First time I actually try to be nice and this. UGH **** being nice ever again. I am going to the gym and working off this hangover. OP **** you. You can go **** Joey's cousin with him, have a gang bang inbreeding fest. ****ing troll. I hope this made up shit actually happens to you now, but your the one someone fantasizes about hurting. Let it be a big joke then cause Karma is a bitch.

Dumb cunt troll.

Despite the complete backtracking ... I'm still willing you provide some books to you in the event you really want to work on self improvement and mental stability. I have a feeling you aren't really looking for help though.

We could report the OP to the FBI internet crime division, and ask them to investigate the threats.

That might cure the troll fetish.

OP, when the pain, the desperation and the wrong desire, are being replaced with fear and a natural reaction to deny the stated and defend oneself, it's still a positive outcome. It means that you are already in a different place than you were a few days ago and more aware of the possible consequences and this a good start. You don't 'destroy' the internal scars, by the way. You transform that negativity that you have been accumulating into something positive and if you can't do it on your own, you look for help.

If you invented everything...you should indeed be careful with impersonating. There are healthy and unhealthy limits when doing that :)
Good luck on your journey!

I personally don't believe you made your story up. What I believe is that you were so angry at that silly "BackUp" poster's comment, that you felt the only way to get back at him (and cover your tracks so no one DOES actually trace your IP address), was to act like you really didn't mean anything you just said.

Others are right: regardless of what you're lying about here, your behavior is a scream for help. The things you chose to discuss here and how you discussed them (even if it had been in jest), speak to a person who is desperate for attention and has a sociopathic bent. It also speaks to someone with serious rage/hostility issues (The clinical word isn't "pychopathic" folks, regardless of how often the term is misused in the media.)

I'm with others: get yourself some psychological help and take an anger management class.

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Originally Posted by Villo [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]

and has a sociopathic bent. It also speaks to someone with serious rage/hostility issues (The clinical word isn't "pychopathic" folks, regardless of how often the term is misused in the media.)

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Wrong. Aren't you the one who calls it "psychic"? lol

A psychopath is different than a sociopath, and the OP is DEFINITELY psychopathic.