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Beautiful and elegant phrase.Quote:
Originally Posted by Makeme [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Dear A.D. Your a gigantic hairy piece of shit. That is all :)
I took solace in listening to a self help book like the Secret - on audio book - it really helped me realise that its about your mindset how you feel and if you can get hope and vision on the you will get the strength to feel better.
I will never regret him, or say that I wish I never met him, because once upon a time, He was exactly what I was looking for but not any more!
By day, I walk around this hole, thinking, wanting, waiting and by the time night falls I am falling in again, I miss you like hell, and I will only crawl back out to circle it again. The darkest hour is before the dawn and honey, I hate to say this to those big blue eyes, but I am already beginning to move on.
You are a liar and a fake. Own up to your actions you coward. I'm trying to change for you and you are an ungrateful person. Your mom also controls your actions because she is a depressed lonely woman with nothing to do. Once a cheater always a cheater. You haven't "matured" like you say you have. All a facade. You are full of sh** and you know it. You are a negative person and criticize everything because deep down you don't like yourself. You friends are also shitty people with nothing better to do. This is something I would never say to him because I back him up no matter what but in the end it's the truth and the truth hurts me and him.
You said we were going to deal with things together and when the sh** hit the fan you ran like a crap bunny. You said you loved me and the next day you dont even know me. You are a liar and a coward. You tried to make me feel there was something wrong with me but I realize now it is you who is the idiot. Your actions speak louder than your words ever could. You are what you are and I don´t want you anywhere near me. I am not sorry for what I did because I was always kind and honest to you. I am not sorry for trusting you because I would rather trust and be fooled than live with suspicion. I am not sorry for sharing my thoughts with you because I would rather be honest than a liar. I am not sorry for the lessons I have learnt because I would rather be better than bitter.
Nice going **** face, lol. I called your sister today to make sure you got there and let her know I sent her a baby package and she said you only got in late last night. Nice text you sent me early that morning, saying leaving in 10 mins, don't you mean 10 hours *cough* plus I still think you are using steroids and that is why all the weird weight gain in 6months, you were never able to add weight since I knew you and you have same diet and work out regime, so.. and you got PISSY when I even suggested you might have taken them. BS you did it on your own with diet and lifting, no wai! just another lie from you. But of course your mom the doctor never addresses it, because you are too perfect and precious to ever point out issues too.
Wanted to add this because when talking in a thread earlier about thought I'd be married and have a child by 23 and 25. I got upset, angry and depressed and had to log off. I am angry at him, and myself because after his grandfather died he had the nerve to say that was my fault his grandfather never got to meet his kids, yeah well thanks for forgetting about my mom you asshole!!!!!!!!!! your mom is still alive and can see you one day get married and have kids. You thoughtless ****ing bastard!
I miss your friendship more than our relationship. Still don't understand how you could have ended this for her.
Do you think of me at all? You're all I think about!
Nc is a bitch.
I think you are a shit for trying to push for sex when I went to say no sex, ffs. Just the come over for dinner was the reason why I suggested we go out to eat, or for drinks to talk and not go to your place. Grow up, this isn't my fault, if you were the stand up guy I always thought you were, or least used to be you would have did the few simple things I required to keep a relationship going. I don't want to block your calls and texts ( if even possible???) because I still love you in lots of ways and worry about you in many more. I wish your other training was this month so you wouldn't try to contact me( out of actual sight makes out of mind that much easier for me). :( It makes it hurt more when we talk. I feel like this is my Dear Diary :\
I miss you so much I feel so empty I wish things were different...I don't know for how long ill baring with this!! I miss you like I never did and I just wish you never left
Why do you say you adore me, but dont want to be with me? What the hell did I do? Why am i alone, and you are alone, we could be together this weekend. I know i made you happy, i can still make you happy. I am so devastated. It hurts because you used me and i know you dont miss me.
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Originally Posted by want2heal [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I want this feeling of understanding finally!!! I have spent 5 years trying to understand him..loving him more than myself and putting him first. He never loved me as much as I have loved him.
VERY REMARKABLY WELL PUT
THIS is my life now too..5years later im a" great woman who deserves more and he loves me very much...but don't want this anymore"
four days of heartache...hope this heals soon
This is a nice thread.
If I could say anything to my ex it would be this: You're a piece of shit, and a horrible person. That's all.
..even tho you messed with my sister..even tho you lied to me for years and sneaked to see you bm even tho you slept with the girl in our bed and on our couch that you denied flirting with at the party when I found your email sitting in plain sight on top of her purse..even tho you had secret female friends I never knew about and the countless lies and sneaking...when I did finally cheat on you I never felt any better...I am more clueless to how you could have done me that way so many times...and now that you are done with our 5yrs together and countless apologies to me and my ever forgiving heart is left broken...I still love you
and as u sit in the livingroom disconnected from me and ignore my tears and hurt for 4days now since the surprise news u gave me about me deserving better and you are done...im finding myself typing this nonsense on a forum of strangers...
ill be happy when I can stop being pathetically in love with you and love myself again..
and thanks for planning my birthday vacation and getting me all excited for our getaway in 6 days ill be really enjoying working all these back to back days leading up to my lonely damn birthday..happy birthday=(
aw..so similar...I lost our baby too.he lied and stressed me to it..i was screaming stranded in the rain when I lost the baby..and all the other aboves..how cold...5 years and im not worth it...all I endured..all I forgave and loved him thru..i always told him I loved him more than his mistakes.and he gets to be all light hearted and nonchalant..and I have to recreate a new life=(Quote:
Originally Posted by kkm7 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
If you loved me you'd be here right now. That money was the worst thing that ever happened to you
You turned out to be exactly the manipulative, lying, piece of shit your father told me you were... bitch. you ruined my life.
Youre likely with a guy, shaking your ass and getting stoned. Youre a 40 year old child. Im so glad you are getting fat
I hate you for hurting me and you will pay for it soon. How could you do this to me?
Why did you blocked my number? Did you really think that I will visit you or even talk to you after seeing you romancing with another women. I was sitting in front of you and it did not matter to you, what kind of a person are you? Every women you cheat will not be like me and stay away from you, someone will teach you a lesson soon. Start counting the days. You do not deserve me. Go to hell.
I decided to delete you from my life, you had all the time in the world to understand my pain and correct your self.you were a good person then but with success you have become a rotten cheat. Who are you cheating you or me? How many women are you going to fool around with? Your sister was telling me you were a creep and you always wanted to sit in the middle with people and keep rubbing them. What are you? If I would have known this, I would have filed a case against you for molestation. You freak your fast cast and looks will not stay with you for long. I hear you are married as well; are you for real, why did you lie to me all these years, did you really think I will sleep with a creep like you. Thank god I did not do that. God saved me from you and your creepy ways. All the ladies you love to fondle will know about you soon only thing I want to do now is to expose you to the world. So you will know the meaning of humiliation. You creep, someone out there will be waiting to teach you a great lesson. You need to taste your own medicine to learn life is not a joke and you cannot play with people!s emotions. I never ever want to see you. Rot in hell.
I tried to forget you, I tried moving on, but you know what? I can't , I really can't do it because you were such a b**** about everything. I am not the one to blame, it is simply you. I am not your father, I didn't beated you or treated you like shit I just tried to give you everything and you just continued to treat me like s***. I tried meeting more girls, just to leave you behind but I couldn't have the chance. I hate you, you made me miserable and feel pathetic for trying to fix such a horrible person like you. You don't deserve me, you deserve to be left alone, I hope that someday you regret treating me the way you did. I wish you were dead, but as that is not possible, I wanted to thank you for ripping my heart out you friggin b****. Please rot in your own personal hell
I try and move on but I cant. You hurt me so much by not letting me know you werent happy with me for years. You sat back an thought I would change. Well I cant change what I didnt know was wrong. You say I didnt treat you good enough because I didnt do spontaneous things and surprise you enough. You didnt tell me that until you decided it was over. I spent so much of my life with you and now I have nothing to show for it except a broken heart. You were my first relationship so you could have done a little coaching me to let me know what to do. You just thought I would know and change after I had been doing the same thing for years... You say you wanted to marry me but your actions now show me it wasnt me you really wanted. A guy from your past you liked comes in your life and you sleep with him less than two days later and say your feeling for him are back. That really showed me how much you cared about me and our relationship. You didnt give a shit and I loved you more than anything. I was lonely before I met you and I feel I'm going to be lonely again. You where everything to me. I have mentally moved on and dont want you back but I cant help how my heart feels. Thanks for ripping what I thought was going to be the rest my life away. Good by!
You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to turn to your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and thats a fact
**** all those nights I moaned real loud
**** it, I faked it, aren't you proud
**** all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack
Would not consider an ex, still my friend. I'm sorry for not telling you how I felt a long time ago, might be too late, but better late than never, hope you want consider me an ex friend after this. Hope to see you soon to get it over with. At least I'll have that off my chest.
You Were My Everything
Once the most important person in my life
I didn’t realize it at the time
I can’t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don’t really expect you to either
It’s just...
Just listen…
You’re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I’m sorry about the pain I made you feel
That wasn’t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it’s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies
I wore a disguise 'cause I didn’t want to get hurt
But I didn’t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn’t care when push came to shove
If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn’t have hurt me like I ain’t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly
I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don’t know how I could do you so wrong
I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one else could know you
You’re number one, always in my heart
And now I can’t believe that our love is torn apart
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ‘cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you
I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you’re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart
At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can’t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain
Damn it, I’m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work
What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me
I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I’m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind
I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but…
No matter what, you’ll always be in my heart
You’ll always be my baby
Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse
We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can’t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I’m still there
I don’t wanna hear that you no longer care
Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn’t think you would ever do me like this
I didn’t think you’d wanna see me depressed
I thought you’d be there for me, this I confess
You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I’m nothing to you, you’re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I’m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I’m dying
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we’ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy
I still miss you so much after all you put me through, after all the heartache and tears.. i still think about u all the time.
Sometimes I cant get our beautiful memories out of my head,, it kills me.
Im so tired from thinking about u. Im tired of the thought that we will never be together again. You ruined me. I trusted u.
I want to be free from you. I want to move on with my life like u were never in it, like u never existed.
why did u make me love u so much? I told u from the start that we can't be together. I deeply regret letting myself fall in love with u.
I wish u were here to wipe my tears away like u always did. But now ur just a shadow. You're a ghost and u keep haunting me.
I wish there is still hope for us. Hope is dead for us now. And you're the murderer!
why everything so wrong feels so right??
I hope that someday someone will make u feel the same shit im feeling right now because of u! Broken! Lost! Let down! ...
I will never forgive u for what u did. and i believe that God will set things right for me one day.
Dont u ever think of coming back to me again!
I will find my inner peace, I will find what I need without you and YOU will cry me a river!!
Damn it sometimes I'm so mad at you I could spit, but other times I miss you so much it hurts!!!!!! I just need to get over you!!!!!
I feel the same way, except I am was co murdered which makes it even harder. I can't get him out of my head. His memory is haunting me and I can't take it!!!!
Why didn't you change when you said you would? Why all the promises after it's too late? I tried so hard to be a good woman to you, I took care of you, supported you and loved you unconditionally. I was affectionate, loving and sexual. You rejected me over and over. You were mean. You hurt my heart. I'd like to say I hate you, but damn, I still love you. Stop with the false promises before I fall for them and set myself up to be hurt again. Can you stop to think of someone other than yourself for once?
Why couldn't you support me like I supported you?
Why couldn't you hug me when I was crying furiously and on my knees, just asking for a bit of kindness and understanding from you? Why did you make me beg for your affection and attention?
And why would you say that you can't live without me now, that you'll do something bad if I don't come back? Why are you effing so badly with my emotions?
Don't believe him! don't go back to him. He doesn't deserve u. Be at peace with urself. learn to love urself instead of loving him. Dont hate him cuz it would also make u tired. just move on and let it be. and learn that u r a good person who should be with someone who should at least give u what u deserve.Quote:
Originally Posted by Ginger2013 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I can't believe what an ass I allowed you to make of me. I trusted and believed in you and you just played me!!!!
I still miss you so much. It's still hard for me to imagine that you are not going to be a part of my life... I wish things were different. I wish u never hit me. I wish u never treated me badly.
I know you miss me too. I know you're now regretful for what you did. but for what use now?
I wish I could see you just one more time and call you my baby.
I can't believe it still hurts like hell when i think about u.
I can't believe that i feel like i'm cheating on you if i think about getting to know another guy.
I swear that ur the devil. Sometimes i think of how mean u were to me at the times when i needed u most, and you would simply leave me in agony. u knew how much i loved u and u abused that. sometimes i wonder how the hell i put up with u for 2 years and kept on loving and supporting u.
what do i do when i miss like that? what do i do when i know ur still thinking about me? my baby... that was never love that u gave me. and ur right, our magic was an illusion... but it was i who was illusioned, not u. bcz u know what? u'll never find anyone like me, and u'll never be loved the way like i did.
i cant sleep. its been one month and i need to talk to u. im worried about u. i feel like something bad has happened to u. my heart is aching.
Looking back at your conditions for divorce, me having to pay you alimony is completely unfair, you selfish bastard. I wish I never married you to begin with. I hate your guts.
You and I both know you just wanted the money to get your girlfriend's sex change as if i needed to add insult to the injury.
I'm glad I left you without a single penny. Now you have to work, like the rest of us.. HA..
It's been almost three months since I have seen you and I still can't quit thinking about you. I am crying my eyes out as I am writing this...I just want to get over you!!!!! I wish you would've been there for me when I needed you to be. I feel that you only wanted me until you could have me and then you were gone...DAMN YOU!!!!!! I have loved you for so long.
OMFG you look like a meth addict. [ haven't seen this one ex in 3 years ]
I feel like a ****er for even posting this but hahahahahaha HAH! you don't look good, darlin' and you never treated too many you said you loved very well -- including your own family.