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Originally Posted by danizephyr [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
All those people around me and you're still an empty hole in my heart. I wonder where you are a million times every day. And I hate myself for not deleting your number yet.
I hope you never existed. Letting go is so hard. I wish you were here to tell you how much it hurts that my best friend is leaving the country. I'm gonna feel so lonely without her. You were supposed to be here next to me. But you're not.
I wish you taught me how to be more like you -- careless and stone-hearted.
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it's funny but it's true. i got left for a tranny. and then he sued me for alimony after we filed for divorce because i was the breadwinner and he's a deadbeat. life is f**ked up in a lot of ways.Quote:
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I stood by you through a bad illness. We came through it together. We were going to see everything through together. But you grew distance. We grew distance. You hurt me at the end. But despite that, I still think about you, and would take you back in an instant.
I thought I was over you and thought I was able to move on. I found someone else who I know will be able to look after me and treat me right and give me what I need but she lives soo far away and I know deep down that its going to fail and now that you have moved back up near me and want to catch up your all I can think about. I still don't know what you are trying to achieve, is it friendship or do you want something more? You contacted my friends and starting trying to befriend them again and I don't know what your end game is but I hope you do want try again but this time give me the affection that I need and give me a reason to trust you. I still miss you and just want things to clear up so I can finally think straight again
you are either in jail or in rehab... where the hell are you? i cant believe i still miss u!! what happened to u? and why do i still care!? i know u r somewhere with no internet connection. i know something weird is going on. and i wish there is a way to know what it is. ur birthday is coming soon. well, happy birthday...
I'm sorry for breaking up with you and for making so many mistakes in our relationship. I sent you a couple of messages explaining how sorry I am for everything, but you haven't even read them. I'm at such a loss on what I can do. It seems like we're done for good. I hope that someday you'll at least read my apology and know that I really do feel bad about the mistakes I made on my part.
I know now that you were never going to be mine. Your relationship was evidently not a ****ed up as you always told me, or maybe it is, but you like it that way. I think when you've been with someone for so long and have a child together, you almost end up feeling resigned to your fate. It was the shortest relationship of my adult life, an amazing 3 months, some of the best times I've had, followed by a crippling low. It has been the relationship from which I have learned the most. I will never get involved with someone who is not clearly single and emotionally available again. I realise now that I was just someone who gave you attention at a time when you weren't getting it from him. I could have been anyone. I feel so deeply in love with you, and although you told me you felt it too, I don't think you really did... you just needed someone to raise your self esteem and make you feel desirable again. I was a rebound to you.
I should have seen the signs long ago. You were never willing to give him up and be single. Maybe you were just frightened of being alone, and thinking you couldn't do it. You were always so keen that he didn't find out, and even when he thought he knew, you lied and denied. You kept too much contact when you did 'split', even though most of it was aggressive and argumentative. You just weren't willing to let go. I think him finding out about us spelled the end for you and me. We started as a bit of fun in your mind, fun that quickly got out of control until you struggled to see a way back. He obviously loves you to take you back and forgive you for what you have done. Forgiveness is more than words though. He'll never trust you again, and would be a fool too. You claim to be happier than ever now with your 'fresh start' and 'clean slate', but I don't think people ever change that much. Before long he'll be aggressive and insulting again, and you'll be untrustworthy. For this reason I don't think we could ever be anything again. Given how amicably we parted (thanks to my maturity), I wouldn't be surprised if you do try to contact me again in the future, when your fresh start turns stale, but my eyes have been opened to you now.
I'll always be grateful to you for the great times we had together, but I see now that to have considered you as a potential long-term partner was silly. You are a funny, attractive woman, amazing in bed and with the capacity to be very affectionate. Unfortunately you are also a pathological liar, selfish, quick-tempered and emotionally immature. I would have spent my life tip-toeing around you, frightened of upsetting you to see you fly off the handle and probably start messaging other guys complaining about our relationship.
And so, I genuinely wish you all the best for the future. I bear you no ill feelings, and hope you find lasting love and happiness.
I thought your long disappearance was suspicious, but to find out that u really are in jail... wow.
I dont know whether i should feel sorry for u or that u just got what u deserve!
But to think that me and my mom are responsible for it, thats too much. well, at least now i know that u knew how badly u behaved with me. But thats not me, although maybe i should have, but no. Im not that kind of person, and u should have known that.
now u tell me how much i mean to u? now u tell me im still in ur heart?? hah! so u were just making me suffer.. instead of apologizing to me and my mom.
and ur mother! what an idiot! she never even talked to me or even told me that ur put away in prison! But as always, i had to be the better person and talk to her. she talked to me as if im some kind of an enemy.. i think she put ideas in ur head that i went to the police maybe.
pft. i dont care about all of u anymore. im just glad that god is with me. im extremely thankful for i have never in my life felt that ive been taken care of divine power that much. u, ur mom and the rest of ur family are all feeling what u made me put up through.. all the suffering. not because its their fault or something, but because they let u.
why are u doing this to me? I dont want to feel sorry for u. why? why are u saying that u love me? u want me to forgive u now that you are in prison?
I want to go on, i want to move on. leave me alone. this is torture! i dont want to feel anything for u anymore.
you'll always have a special place in my heart. I cant help it.And i know we'll never be together again. But thanks to u now im stronger and wiser.
you're feeling lonely and only god knows what else. but u brought it all to urself. and its all happening for a reason.
Dear Ex,
You were my knight in shining armor who turned into my King with whom I adored for 4 years. I never thought a long distance relationship would work but you proved me wrong in the beginning, yet right in the end. As we celebrated our anniversary this past weekend, the cold and shade didn't come from the Windy City alone, it came from you. Using your tongue as a sword and your charm to comfort me after your "true confessions" you hid from me, cut my heart into million of pieces. Shocked because you always had my back before, I didn't realize you were simply targeting which part to stab me in. You used the same ammo as my ex-husband did picking silly things to argue about, telling me all the things I stress you out over but it was you saying how you wished you would have met me before I had my son (who is autistic) is what killed me inside. You didn't have to go there and bring my son into this because the signs of infidelity were spotted on you months before. You didn't have to bring my child into this, all you should have said was your feelings about us has changed and you don't want to get married.
Okay. So we've been friends since we've been born. You say you love me, but completely disrespect me. A month and a half later, I hear you might be getting engaged. Have we talked about what's transpired between us? Have you ignored the shit out of me? Are you so immature that you can't face me? I don't care if you love me or loved me, I don't deserve to be treated this way. I never expected this out of you, of all people, and definitely not to me. I guess we see how low people can fall. I tried calling you, just to talk. So we can be honest with one another. You ignored my calls. You agree to a conversation...and then don't follow through. It's a good thing I have God on my side, and that people close to me have flipped just like you. So it's nothing new. I'm already sad for you, because you're going to be the one that suffers. You think you're doing the "right" thing. Not trusting your heart, so you're letting the family pick your fiance. We'll see when you're unhappy that you didn't follow what you wanted, and what we could have had. But I trust in God, and I trust that he'll do what is best. And you're clearly not the best for me, as of now anyways. I have faith.
I miss you terribly.
I thought that after 9 months things would be a lot clearer and the dreams would have stopped, but now they seem to be coming more than ever and more vividly than ever. I hate how I know I still love and miss you, and I hate feeling like you forgot about me so quickly. I hate not knowing what is happening in your life but at the same time, I don't think I'd want to. I still wish things could be different, the thoughts of Christmas coming up, which I usually get so excited about, are scaring me because its the first one without you. I just look back to this time last year, carving pumpkins together and watching films round Halloween and I didn't know just a few months later my world would come crashing down. I just hope you've found this as hard as I have deep down, even if you don't show it on the surface. I miss you terribly x
I m trying to forget u after u left me. I m trying really hard but there hasn't been a single day or hour I can't think of u. Been over 2 months u left me. I know u have moved on but I have not. I love u a lot n idk if I will ever stop loving u. I hAd left everything for u but I wasn't prefect. I told u I m trying to change but it was to late. I was just trying to get the world to ur feet. All the long hours at work all the fights to make sense of everything was just to make a future for us and have a family. Know u treat me as if I don't exist. I would do anything to hear ur voice n hold u and kiss u. U were my life. Writing this has brought tears to my eyes. I just hope u r happy with whoever u r with n watever u r upto. I have false hope someday u will come back. But I know it will never happen. Love u miss u. Wish I could change the past n hold u again.
Thanks for the experience I hope life is treating you well.
Oh crap I miss u so much. I m so stressed out I don't have the one person with whom I shared everything. Love u n miss u.
Dear ex, its been almost 2 months.
Your last words were Ever and Never.
U told me u needed time. U ****ed another men.
U told me u miss me in your bed. U invited me. U wanted me.
U abandoned me, u lied, u cried.
Dear ex u hurt me so much I am half a person. U make me cry, u make me lose everything.
Love I miss, God help me, help me to survive.
Alone.
The broken heart of Constantine.
Im posting here instead of making a fool of myself I contacted you the other night and got no reply I feel so stupid
x
I'm having a tough time on my medications and I did it for you, I know I said for me too, but obviously it was mostly to appease you and I am feeling tired, sick and miserable in hopes of feeling like me again and happy and there is no you and me anymore. Not in the way I wanted when I went on these. Least my next love will get a better me, the me I used to be and a better more loving happy with herself partner.
Well I just texted you telling u my feelings. N how much I miss u but no reply from you. Wow it was tough telling you this. But to u I stopped existing. Sorry for the bad I ever did to u. With love.
I was suicidal when I met you. You loved me cause you believed that Im good but it was not the person you think I was. When I said I love you it was actualy someone else I loved. I just wanted to say these words and you was there to listen. Afterwards I said I love you only because you expected and wanted to hear it. I noticed how you changed and how much you wanted to be with me. Just my touch was a lot for you. You was all exited but you were alone in your dream world. I didnt see you more than a friend. My heart was broken. I couldnt love. You took all the shit that previous girl gave to me. I saw you crying when I hurt you but couldnt feel for you. When you cried thats when I felt loved, when you begged I said no and your tears gave me confidence.
But destroyed you. I didnt belived in myself but you did all the way. Your love bring me back to life and healed my broken heart. But it healed without you in it. I didnt had to earn your love didnt had to change myself. You just needed someone to love and your love came easy. I was just a shit but you saw reflection of your perfection in me and loved it thinking that its me who is amazing. You did a lot for me but I cant say the same about myself. You were lonely for a long time and you had a lot of love to give. You didnt understand how it can be that you are treating me so good but I didnt apreciate it and treated you like a shit. Its because the best place of my heart I gave to someone else. Previous girl played with my heart and didnt gave it back when she left. With my heart gone was everything that was in there - dreams, hopes, love and warrior soul and even faith in god. I never changed myself for anyone except myself but I changed everything about myself to like that girl all the bad and good things. All the rules was broken. I was not the fighter anymore. My weakness caused your pain. Your pain made me feel good. Like Im not the only one suffering on this planet. I saw you going insane just like I did with previous girl. This pain was killing you. It would take just a few words from me to make you feel better but no. Zero fcks were given. My black heart couldnt feel for you. All I cared about was my addictions. I will never do all the crazy things I did for the girl I loved. And I know you will never do what you did for me to other guys. I cannot ask you to forget about me it would be too much to ask. But life is fair and I know you paid for your future happines with the pain you took from me. Believe me I know your life would be better if you never met me. Perhaps thats what happens when angel meets deamon.
Us breaking up was so sudden, I feel like I have so many questions that are just unanswered.
You deal with it a lot differently than I do, as I think you just want to erase me from your life. We never fought, had trust issues, and were just generally great together. So where did it go wrong?
I told you that I won't talk to you unless you want to talk to me...its been the longest week ever..and still no word from you. It takes every ounce of my will power to not contact you. To not pick up my phone in the morning and say hey.
It sucks, so much, that I no longer have that one person who I was able to tell everything to. You have majority of your friends still around, and your mom who you can talk to whenever. My friends are all away with school/life, and I can't even mention you around my parents if I don't want to cry.
All I needed was you. You got me through the day..gave me motivation to do well in everything I tried..and let me be myself to the fullest extent.
I miss you, so damn much.
Lately I have been thinking about u a lot I even dream about u. But I m going to stay away. U broke my heart good. I will devote time on myself do things I always wanted. I will get ripped by going to the gym like I used to be. I will buy my dream car a 68 camaro or a 64 mustang. I will buy a house. I will go back to school. Most of all I will do all of this without u. N I will not date for the longest time. It's about me n hope u screw up so bad that u will understand u never leave a person who loved u more than himself. Lastly enjoy your time with your new bf. oh n ur a nut job with all the issue u have. I was always there in ur hardship but u cudnt handle mine FU.
Its been 3 days since we spoke and I assumed you didn't want me in your life. After I did nothing at all - your own words.
I've been trying so, so hard to get you out of my mind. To stop thinking about you, or how your day is going, or what you're up to.
We both know that your personality isn't one to show weakness or emotions, so it does hurt that you seem to have forgotten me.
We shared a year together, one that I couldn't have ever possibly hoped to have. I learned so much about myself, and what real happiness is. Life just seems stale now, seems so empty without you.
I miss you. Uncontrollably. I hate thinking about how long it'll take to get over you.
I do stand by what I said though. I do hope you are truly happy. It's all I've ever wanted since meeting you.
I miss you so much. I wish you were here.
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I want you back but if i say that you will not take it seriously. You never take anything seriously! Grow up
I miss you fool!
I hope you get pregrant.
i am still incredibly angry and confused at what you told me two weekends ago. i am glad i have cut myself off. i just wanted to know wtf was going on. i'm not sure i will ever talk to you again...i do not want these thoughts and feelings resurfacing. i do not want to relive anything close to that weekend ever again. its time to learn how to protect myself from girls like you.
You contacted me today out of the blue after a year of not talking at all and asked me to go get coffee with you. I'm nervous. I am married now but I still cannot say no to you, and I still dream about you all the time. I know you just want to see me because you just broke up with your boyfriend and want to make yourself feel better by being around someone who you know adores you. I hope that when we do meet up that I can keep it friendly and not give in, you are nothing compared to the amazing girl I have now...so why can't I say no to you?
I miss you every minute of every day. I feel so pathetic all the time. It breaks me that you don't care
Dear Madhavi , dear love of my life I hope some day you will look into your heart and see me there, pick up my broken heart pieces and put them together.
Oh how I wish it dear love...
Even with how stupid I was to blindly let you treat me like shit. Even knowing how you never gave a single damn about me. Even knowing how strongly you showed signs of messing with other guys near the end of our relationship -- When we first met you gave me your phone with no problem. At our last discussion you made up some crap excuse that you don't like people going through your stuff, knowing I never did anyway. Your trust in me was pathetic. -- Even with seeing how you've changed in the course of 1 month: I still miss you.
Perhaps I don't miss the new you. I miss our memories. What I felt when I was around you. How I used to sneak over to your house and the unforgettable moments we spent with each other. How could I forget that? You were amazing, beautiful, special at first sight. We said meaningful things to each other; at least I did. I meant them. You were never as stupid. As childish. As confused. You were set on us. Age had never been an issue with you. Why such an abrupt change? What did you want? More attention than what I gave you? I gave you the world. I treated you with royalty. Mostly all of your past relationships resulted in them cheating on you. And once we separated it took but 24 hours for you to ask for a guys number, flirt with another and talk to an ex boyfriend who cheated on you. Your self respect is worthless. Either way, in the end I found out you flirted in the last month of our relationship. Selfish brat.
When we first talked never had I had a girl care for me; much less the way you did. I believed you. You really had me convinced. I helped you through one of your toughest moments and you repay me with selfishness. With the pathetic remarks of an imbecile. I hate you for being so stupid. And even more for crawling back to bastards who treat you worse than you treated me. It would do me good to see you end up with garbage like that. To have no trust in. To have them talk down on you, bring you down but never pick you up. Never be by your side. Never support you. Never try as hard as I did to work for your trust. Which has about as much value as a simple dime. No one will ever care for your or love you like I did, I can promise you. But I can reassure YOU that I will never find anyone as amazing, as beautiful and as outgoing and unique as you. At least in the first few months where I thought I knew you.
I was always there for you. For your family. You siblings. I did them as much good as I did you. Treated them with respect. And now that I think about it-- I lied. You gave me more than just selfishness. For the first time in my life you let me love. You gave me hope. You gave me something worth fighting for, a future worth looking forward to. You gave me pure happiness. There was a first for all of that, especially in my life. And that was you. I both hate you and love you for that with every inch of my heart. Despite the hell I went through for 2 weeks, also the first time ever weeping, sobbing over a girl, despite the anger and jealousy you caused; despite the fear and sadness I felt for you...I still love you. You won't be easy to forget. Out of every relationship, you are the only one I can't forget. Because you are the first one I truly ever felt love for. I hate you with such rage. I love you with such passion. I won't forget you. I can't get my mind off of us; how we used to be. I can't think straight. I can't focus. I can't bear with this life without you. It's been a month and I still have found no escape of these emotions... So I decided my final option was to live a military life to escape from it all. And so I shall within the next few months. How I wish I could have the opportunity to write you. 1 thing I regret is ignoring your texts. Ignoring you. Now that opportunity will never come across again. How I wish I could hold you in my arms one last time, kiss your gorgeous lips one last time, and hear those 3 heart warming words from out of your mouth one last time, knowing they meant absolutely nothing coming from you. But again, it never hurts to wish.
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Thank you for this thread, Ames. Writing in a journal would have been a waste with what little, but lot that was on my mind. Writing it down definitely helps you think better and have an even more open look on it. I apologize if it's unnecessarily long. The rest will just stay locked away in the great mind. This was just enough to help me get through a few more weeks. Cheers.
HackerExecute, your post was so powerful and discribed exactly, beautifully, how I too feel at the moment. I just want you to know that you're not alone and we'll emerge from this victorious.
Couldn't write that any better.Story of my life Execture, truth is women like to be treated like shit, treat them like queens and u got ****ed badly...
Thank you for those kind words. Much appreciated. And I do hope you are right...Quote:
Originally Posted by PeterPeter [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
From my experience I've seen only girls want to really be treated like shit so as a teenager, the guy would end up cheating or hurting her so bad, they break up, and she gets attention from all of her friends and other people around. Females love attention but I say that is one stupid way to gain it. Women on the other hand want a man. The alpha male. To protect her and take care of her. They don't so much need to be treated like shit rather than to know you have those qualities and can go off on her at any minute at her stupidity. Though females wanting to be treated like dirt, already, is a crap trait. But that will never change.Quote:
Originally Posted by Constantinesbr [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
A bit of extra information: this girl was completely immature. I realized it in the end. She was in an incredibly high state of attracting attention. And wouldn't you know her method was smoking pot and drinking at a young age for acceptance. Typical, eh? Though she only gave up and began doing it at the end of our relationship. It was all out of selfishness.
But it doesn't mean the only way to treat women is like dirt. They only need to know you can so they can feel protected. That you can stand up and fight (though how ironic it was that I train filthy mma). My own mistake was I was TOO kind and gave her TOO much that she still took for granted and maybe thought I was still weak. We did mess around sometimes, I called her names and treated her badly. Didn't work. I will never run through my mistake again.
You stupid cow. After 5 years and me being the best friend i could, you ****ing brush me off with an email??? Just because he messed you around it wasn;t my fault. Maybe if you kept your legs closed for five minutes instead of jumping into bed with the first guy who gave you a bit of attention, you;d have more friends and a bit more self respect.
I hope you keep meeting guys who treat you like crap. You ever contact me again after this, i'll tell you to go **** yourself.
One day you will need me more than I ever needed you. One day you will miss me more than I ever missed you. One day you will regret all those things you said to hurt me. One day you will do anything to talk to me again. Karma is coming to get you