Damian, seriously? He's like a taller, older, uglier version of me. And way more ****ed up than I am to boot.
Some people go up a step or down a step with new partners. You fell down a ****ing flight of stairs.
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Damian, seriously? He's like a taller, older, uglier version of me. And way more ****ed up than I am to boot.
Some people go up a step or down a step with new partners. You fell down a ****ing flight of stairs.
Never ever again. I've lost all respect and trust in you now.
How could you look me in the eye and tell me that you love me and when I'm not there you are searching for a new BF on a dating site.
Well thank you, you've made it a lot easier to get over you now after doing that to me
whoa.. HG she did what??
do you have feelings for me still or no?
I think I'm pretty much over you now btw :-). I feel so good.
How could you be so emotionless and heartless about the whole situation? How could you just throw all those 2 years away like it meant nothing to you? How could you? I hate you. I hope you will regret your decision and that you will never be as happy with another girl as you were with me. But the truth is I know you will move on without me because you are incapable of loving someone. You are a coward for holding yourself back. You were so scared of getting hurt that you never really let me in. You let your past hold you back. You will never find love. I hate you for being a little pussy. I hope one day you will see how happy I am with someone else and I hope you will regret everything that happened between us. I hope you will feel the pain that I am feeling now because you deserve it. But I doubt you will, you emotionless robot who actually thinks you have feelings and emotions. Stop lying to yourself! I wish you nothing but the worst. I ****ing hate you.
It took me awhile to admit it to myself, but: I don't like you. Your indifference towards the world, being disrespectful to people, how you find honesty and sincerity boring... You're toxic, and I wish no longer to have anything like that in my life.
What is your problem? Why did you text me last night to tell me you that were taking your dating profile down? What does that even mean?
That's the way it is with you, I always have to try and figure out what you are saying!! Does this mean you realise it was wrong so you are taking it down because you want us to stay together ? or you are taking it down because you don't think you should be dating anyone else at the moment?
To be honest, I don't care what you do with your profile, really, leave it up because you will need it. I didn't end it because you had an active profile on a dating site, I ended it because you justified it by saying you did it because you didn't feel in love with me. And now I'm pissed that you are trying to back peddle and that you didn't really mean that and you just said it because you had been drinking. And for you to now tell me that you would never have dated anyone else because you didn't want to throw what we had away is a joke, an insult.
You can't say things like that unless you mean them, have you any idea how painful it is for someone you love to tell you after 18 months they don't feel the same way about you? Do you?
And do you have any idea how that person then feels when you say you didn't really mean it?, you only said it because you had been caught doing something wrong?
Well I'll tell you. I feel sad.
Sad that I have wasted 18 months of my life loving someone who can play with people emotions like that, sad that I invested so much in someone so selfish and un-deserving.
You reap what you sow in life and you will get only what you deserve, and for you that is not someone loving and caring, someone who will support you and love you regardless of your faults or issues, for you it will be someone that will not respect you, who wont put up with your crap, who will play you and mess with your emotions, and in a few years when the dating well has dried up for you because your looks have gone, you will sell your sole to be with someone, anyone, just so that you are not alone, and they wont love you, they will need you but it will be empty and then you will know how you made me feel.
You cheating, lying, good for nothing scum bag!!! I loved you with all my heart and gave you my everything! You always managed to make it look like it was my fault and its was all down to me that I lost you.. NO F**king way!!!! YOU CHEATED. Not me! YOU slept around. NOT ME! I gave you everything and you went and blew it. DONT YOU DARE MAKE ME OUT TO BE THE BAD ONE. I left you alone so therefore its all my fault you went off to f*** some woman who looks old enough to be your mother!!! YA KNOW WHAT! I hope she f**ks you over, or finds out what a cheating, lying scum bad you are! I hope you end up alone and miserable. I hope you realise you f**ked it up with the best thing that EVER will happen to you! YOU BLEW IT!!!! I really hope that one day you feel what I feel now. And as for never seeing any of YOUR friends.. AS IF! THEY DONT BELONG TO YOU!!! If they wish to be my friends also THERE AINT NOTHING YOU CAN DO ABOUT IT!!!!:mad:
Seriously I don't give a f*** what the status of your stupid dating profile is, I don't care if they haven't got back to you and you haven't been able to delete it yet, just quit making excuses to text me, really just f*** off and leave me alone, I'm trying to have sex here
Another text from you after we said no more texting. AFTER I said goodbyes... SERIOUSLY.. I don't care if your room is a mess! You're lucky I didn't do to you what you did to me TWICE in the last 7years! A mess you can clear up.. broken irriplaceable items I CANNOT EVER GET BACK!! NOW PLEASE STOP TEXTING YOU SMALL MINDED LITTLE MAN. STOP BLAMING ME!!! And ya know what.. so what everyone hates me now (so you say).. THOSE THAT DO ARE AS SMALL MINDED AS YOU AND IM GLAD I WILL NO LONGER BE ASSOCIATED WITH THEM!!!
Not sure where I even found this strength from, but do wanna know something? I'm actually ok.
I'm actually cool about us splitting up, I'm actually glad I ended it and I'm even more happy that I've decided no matter what, I'm not getting back with you.
You had your chance and it just didn't work out, but I did love you and because of that I truly hope you find what you want and are happy. No regrets, no malice,I just wish you well.
I hope this was a very recent breakup.Quote:
Originally Posted by silverstar1986 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I don’t understand why you cant put him behind you. Yes you were engaged but he is a loser and a weirdo. Like I have said before you don’t need people like that in your life. I just feel like you led me on. Why even date me at all? I am sure that it is hard for you but how do you think I feel about this? I feel used. Was I just a rebound to you, do you even care about my feelings? Why jump into a relationship with me so soon if you knew you were still hung up on this asshole. Yes I am calling him an asshole. Anyone that lies and puts their kid in the middle is an asshole. You claim you don’t want to get back with him, yet break up with me because you need time to get over your relationship. Time for what? Were you telling me the truth when you said you wish we had met a few months later. What does that even mean? You want to get back with me when you are ready? Well how long am I supposed to wait? That is not fair, yet I find myself wanting to wait for you. I really felt you were special and different. This sucks.
I'm sorry that I cut all the contacts to you after our breakup, but you knew my rules. When I found out you got rebound under a month (stupid little birds), my feelings got out of control and the next weeks was continuous waves of depression and overjoy. Part of the job when you have bipolar disorder. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you about that, but I wasn't sure if I had it until I saw what my mind went through after the breakup. So sorry about that, anything else I don't regret. I don't blame myself anymore, I know that we just weren't made for each other.
Thanks for the memories. :)
yes it was recent break up.. yesterday.
You're actually driving me nuts now. You're making me angry. You text (which I ignored) that this is easy for me as i am busy... WTF! No this is not easy for me. To walk away after so long and after all I put into the relationship. Wow, what a waste of my time and effort. For what? To have it all thrown back in my face. I would love it if you stopped texting me now so that i can get over your sorry, sad, pathetic, selfish ass!
How many times have you said you've deleted me now?? DO IT ALREADY!! I deleted you yesterday!
And yeah.. go ahead, think about all of this until you find someone you can go f**k to keep your mind off of it. Didnt find it difficult when we were together, why would you now!!! You still have your granny friend to go f***! Go be happy doing what you seem to do best. I hope it brings you happiness and an STD!!!!!!
Oh.. and YOUR friends you say im now allowed to talk to anymore... SAID THEY DONT HATE ME AND WILL NOT DISCARD ME AS YOU HAVE!! And they are your best and closest friends. Suck on THAT!!!!!
You broke my heart. You broke me and left me for dead. You put me through hell for 3 months. You used me, lied to me after everything I had done for you. You couldn't wait 3 weeks... well now you can wait a lifetime. You can bad mouth me to your friends, try to make yourself feel better, try to replace but you will never find someone who loved you and treated you as good as I did. You will never find someone as good as me.
I cannot wait around forever as I do not think it would be fair to you or I. I would like to continue seeing you but only if you are ready. If you don’t think it will work out then I think we should cut all ties, at least for now.
This is not personal, and is really hard for me but a friendship with someone where one person has feelings for the other never works. In the future I am sure it will work but not at the moment. I hope you are happy in whatever path you decide you need to take. What do you think about this?
for weeks, i've missed you-- checked my phone to see if you called or sent me a text, but i know that it's not coming. that when push comes to shove, you're not going to make a move and i need to be strong enough to accept that and make peace with it. something died inside of me on monday after speaking with you-- how you trivialized our relationship and called it anything but that. "we were just friends who had deep feelings for one another." but you see, it was so much more than that to me. it was love, it was abiding and maybe you just don't know what true love is yet. you're the one with so many past lovers and you were my one and only. now i've been downgraded to just another one left behind.
the memories hit me like a flood-- the bamboo forest, little green pieces on your bureau, that song, smokestacks, intertwined fingers, the seaport, that love.
right now, it's hard to wish you well. i just had a conversation with my best friend and she says that i need to leave it be and pretend that you no longer exist. and i nod and smile because i know that for me, it's still not over. it's said that women fear how they'll be forgotten and men fear how they'll be remembered. do you still think of me while i remember you?
goodnight.
I not really sure I want to know !!
dear Eric- I would have never imagined when I first told you about my dad that on this night, we wouldn't even be on speaking terms. I want nothing more than to call you and have you tell me that it's going to be alright because for years you've been that rock for me. now it's all destroyed and there's only quiet between us. I know that right now, you're on the phone with her, saying goodnight and telling her sweet things. not so long ago that was our time and now it's over. so much for being my first call and how fast that changed.
so I guess all I can do at this point is to tell myself that it will be ok tomorrow because that's all that I can do.
goodnight.
I wish I could get mad!! Maybe that would make me feel better that I have no contact with you for 2 weeks. The way you acted all of a sudden still baffles me. I do think it's pretty weak that you can't at least talk to me to break up with me. You're the one that had to start using the "Love" word with ME, how ironic that now when I expected you to be there, all of a sudden you are out. Talk about leading me down a path to nowhere. I really didn't think you were like that. But I know you run from your problems, that is something I have seen you do before. Now I wish I was the one that ran from you. You are such a Trip.
Seems like you are pretty mad.Quote:
Originally Posted by KelE [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
So 30 odd texts in the space of two days.. rants, anger, blame... and plain nastiness. And now nothing. THANK **** FOR THAT! I know that you are with her. As much as you thought it was.. STUPID IS NOT MY MIDDLE NAME!!! DUMB ASS! I CANT WAIT TO RID YOU OUT OF MY LIFE FOR GOOD YOU SAD LITTLE MAN! YOU MAKE ME SICK!!!
You dumped me and replaced me within a week. I hate you but god do I love you. You remain cold as ice no matter what I say. You are the love of my life but I wish I never met you.
I lost all respect for you when instead of taking responsibility for cheating on me you turned it around to me spoiling your birthday because I found out.
What twisted logic is that anyway?
And then to say if I had never found out we would still be together ... err yeah but it wouldn't have changed the fact that you cheated on me, decieved and betrayed me I just wouldn't have known just how low you really are
Really I am much better off without you in my life, you can't even acknowledge what you have done is wrong without pointing the finger somewhere else
The bit that really sucks about all of this is that I truly loved you, gave you my heart and you threw it back in my face and now I'm the one that ends up hurting ... thanks for that
Same here. Dumped me and already had someone lined up waiting. Hate him with a passion but love him and missing him with all my heart.Quote:
Originally Posted by MartinSL [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
Even though I swore to myself I'd never call you again, I did. And once again, you said no. Why can't I just let you go? Don't you see we're meant to be? How could I be wrong about the only thing I have ever been sure of? I can't lose you... please don't go...
Thanks for your email
I don't know if I want to catch up in a few months when everything has calmed down and I'm not sure relationship counselling will help with the trust issues if we decide to get back together
I can't even think about that now.
I just want some sapce, lots of it.
I was really pissed that you were on that dating site when we were suppose to sorting things out. I'm over that now but I'm not over you and I need to be.
I try to forget about you, about us, but once again you called me and left a message. I hung up on you 2 days ago with the idea to never talk to you again. Why are you doing this? Why are you torturing me? I miss you so much... but I hate you just as much. I want to hear your voice so bad... but I know it won't bring me any good. I want to... but I won't call back. You replaced me with another. I need to move on. You are the love of my life... my baby... my one true love... but only in my own little head. I need peace of mind, please stop tempting me. I love you and always will.
I love you.. so very much.. the same as I ever did.. how can it be that your feelings just changed?? HOWWWW???? I just cant understand!! and how long have you just been saying the words only to make me happy? dont you remember how u felt when ur 'sis' left you? and my pain was the same when my best friend left me.. and that pain brought us together..we would never, ever do that to each other.. and now, you did.. but its much worse, because I believed in your forever, and I gave you everything I had to give..
yesterday..
when I would wake at night..
I would just reach out..
and you were there..
I could feel ur arms around me..
and so much love..
and I would go right back to peaceful sleep..
today..
when I wake at night..
I reach out..
and touch cold, empty nothingness...
ur not here..
and I want to scream..
but I dont have the strength..
and so I cry for the rest of the endless hours...
F*CK you f*CK you f*cK you omg you know I'm here and u know how much I am suffering... how can u just not talk to me.. how can u do this to me.. YOU DID THIS TO ME!!!!!!
I just want you to be happy.. if its with me cool, if not thats cool too.. I just dont like being in limbo.. and I cant wait around for you. I will give you some time, if I am still single in a month or so Ill contact you and find out whats going on between us.. but I am not going to wait for you, it just isnt fair.
You and I both know that we can never be just friends. Friends meet and talk. We won't.
Funny as ... Good to see you deleted your dating profile at last, shame you didn't do that 4 months ago when we got back together.
Fact you deleted it the week after I dumped you actually made me laugh, thanks for that :)
if you could please... please... not do anything else that could possibly hurt me.. just for awhile.. I just cant take it right now.. and I dont know if its ok to say this to you or not..
I was looking forward to getting home.. so I could have some vodka to kill the pain.. after I saw that the picture was gone, I guess nothing will kill the pain..now I cant wait till I can sleep.. but even if I sleep, I'm, afraid of the morning..because there will be even more pain.. and I wont allow myself to drink till evening.. well things change.. maybe I will just be drunk all day...
now I have to post more comments so I can post my link.. maybe I should just send it to him
I hope this will be the last one