oh dear god I cant stand this... just sitting here waiting like an idiot for an hour.. and no word from you.. guess you dont even care if I am ok anymore... please god let me make it thru work today...
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oh dear god I cant stand this... just sitting here waiting like an idiot for an hour.. and no word from you.. guess you dont even care if I am ok anymore... please god let me make it thru work today...
Interesting to see your dating profile is still inactive, don't tell me you are actually thinking of getting your shit sorted out before going back on and dating someone else? Well good on you.
Maybe you really are upset that I ended it with you, last realtionship of yours that ended you were back on within a couple of days.
It's been two weeks now .... Wow... I'd be impressed if you are upset over us, means I did actually mean something to you
"if only things were as we wanted not as they are." Wtf does that mean......... I HATE FACEBOOK!!!!!!!!!!
I hear you DH... I hear you..
It's not too late. You know you don't want to be with him. Sure he treats you like a princess and you think you are happy now, but you are not going to be for long. Your lapdog does all you ask but it is hollow not love just obediance. Think about when we met you know what was missing from your first marriage -- it was you could walk all over him. When you were with me there was a lot of conflict, and it was not easy for you but that is because I was the only man that stood up to you, The only man strong enough. Our conflict was born of our passion, Passion he does not give you. I was your Prince and now he is your Prince but in five years you would make me your King, but if you stay with him he will never be more than your Court Jester.
You know what your friend said, strong women are red, most woman are beige, but if you think about it strong men are black but most men are grey. Don’t settle for grey I don’t want to settle for beige.
I know you think I am in a committed relationship but I miss the passion we had in bed. We were on fire.
Last we met you did not tell me you were engaged, even though I asked directly, you also hid from me his $20,000 engagement ring too. Yes I saw you sit on your left hand. I also saw you tremble as I pulled that seatbelt aside. There can only be one of two reasons, to spare my feelings or because you are not over me. If it is the first thank you for the kindness but we know it is the second.
Your wedding is February 14 2012, don’t do it -- it’s a mistake. I am not 8 days too late after all.
Hey you! I apologise for the drunken texts last night. I could tell you didn't want to talk to me after me calling you really bad names but I am sorry about that, was angry I suppose and it's hard to let go of you, because I really do love you so much. I do appreciate you texting me back though, even though you didn't need to or anything like that. Thinking about you today a lot, I just want to give you a big hug! The guys you've been with since we've broken up have been on my mind a lot too, but guess I've just got to deal with it. I hope you don't hate me as much as you say you do, I guess you just need time, which is shit because I hate waiting
Miss you.
f*ck you!
Peace!
why is my timing so bad? i would do anything for another chance! you need to get over that loser
I cant stop wondering if u are with someone else..how could u be? after all those things... its almost like I need to know.. yet if I found that out, I think I would just die..maybe its that if I knew you were NOT with someone else, then I could at least have some peace.. knowing that all the things u said were true, and not said just to spare my feelings..
Well I hope you had a shitty sleep, hate to think I'm the only one not sleeping.
Sort of feel happier if I knew you actually cared enough about me and what we had to be going through some pain right now.
puuurzzz i know what your saying.. which is why I need to do what i need to do... get answers.. although I know if i dont get the response I want Ill feel worse.. but sometimes you need to find out if its meant to be or not.
If you have to look to find out if it was meant to be, it wasn't |:)
all i asked for was a break to get myself in order. i wanted you to be there for me but you are always all about yourself. this break was only suppose to be for a week and a half until you finished YOUR exam and now u tell me its not a break we are done? WTF! i have always been there for you and instead of just respecting me and my needed space you turned this into how i hurt u.... why is it always about u? one day you will grow up and realize how you have mistreated me. someone someday will love me and wont just take from me but will be willing to give back
I love you. and now I love vodka again. because of you. THANKS FOR THAT!!!! *hick* now.. I think I can finally sleep.. hope u are having fun. NOT!!
We spoke yesterday and i finally got some things off my mind. I do mean it when i say im not waiting around for you this time, this time i mean business. Lets see if you contact me first during NC... because if you don't, i get the picture. And lets also see if NC actually helps me get over you...
sometimes you need to work for things though.. that was my point.. i cant just sit on my ass.Quote:
Originally Posted by Horseyguy [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
In response to your letter
(excerpt)
Yes, I do get jealous. It almost seems like you’ve been trying to make me jealous. It is something that I am working on. I have my security issues. I fully admit that one as well. I wish you would understand why.I understand that you have YOUR issues and you need to deal with them and not put them on me. You flip out if you think someone else brought me home from work, when you know damn well I drove myself. If you are so unhappy with everything I do and question everything as suspect, then yes, I am afraid that you are going to leave my high and dry. Even the slightest bit of reassurance from you that yeah even though we have our issues, you still feel something for me and aren’t going to bail would help a ton to set my mind at ease.
Once you know that you have me where you want me you get comfortable and slip back into your old patterns(drinking to excess and now your attraction to men(or whatever the hell it is, you won't say) and I'm left confused as to why I'm even here.
I know you are going to get attention from other guys. You’re ****ing beautiful. Atleast for now, you’re my beautiful woman.
I'm only your beautiful woman on paper, you mishandled my heart and I don't trust you to hold it
I’m doing whatever I can to try to keep it that way.
Like filling my head with a bunch of empty promises?
I’m not going to jeopardize that with a random piece of ass. I will not and have not slept with anyone else since we’ve been back together.
That's because your gay and haven't accepted it
So this morning when I answered my phone, you rudely say "Thanks for answering your phone."
Guess what? I'm not putting up with your shit anymore.So you can keep calling and remember what you said to me. I'm not playing games with you I'm avoiding your BS.
I'm relieved that I finally have an outlet where I don't have to burden my family and friends with this drama. A little space (that you won't let me have) where you can't make your issues my problems.
I'm still your friend but friends tell each other the truth and the truth is you're a prick.
....oh wait - i DID send that ;) and it felt goooood.
Wouldn't have minded adding that i've met someone new and he's a better man than you'll ever be. How does that jealousy taste?
Hey, how you doin?
At least I can say I tried...you didnt. I got my happiness back and you have your past to dwell on...its what you wanted. I will still have feelings of love for you for the rest of my life but that chapters written and a new page will turn.
Man! The only bad times of my days are those when I thing about you. Strange, I feel happier as days pass.
how can u just not want to talk to me at all??? I still cant understand it... I didnt even know how much you loved me until you FINALLY told me that I hurt you!! I DIDNT KNOWWWWW!!! why cant you understand that??? why cant you forgive me?? you say you did, but obviously you didnt.. cant you see that I have completely changed my entire life? for you?? so many times every day I talk to your pic.. I miss you sooo much... I will always love you.. and you tell me... life goes on <3
I don't understand how I'm supposed to just carry on knowing I'll never see your pretty face again. You trashed my world and not that it's your problem, but I'm ****ing miserable and your well..........who the hell knows you just di.ssapeared
nothing in this world i wanted more now then being with you again....you left me because of your family..and i know that is the hardest decision you had made for your entire life..i will pray to god to let us see each other again my love..and im sorry for making you to choose..i will always love you
Goddamn I hate Facebook. Countless of nights I've dreamed about you and forgetting those dreams in mere seconds when I wake up, but when one name pops up in my Facebook you instantly crawl under my skin. Get out of my head you wench, I was getting used to actually feeling harmony with myself!
Hey how are you? Did i happen to leave a yankees ring at your house?
mornings are just getting harder and harder.. I stayed up so late last night with my vodka hoping I could sleep thru some of this.. but the hole you left in my heart wakes me up every morning.. recently you told me you missed me... I didnt say it first... you dont know how happy those 3 little words made me that day.. I hope someday I will stop missing you...
OH GOD... all I did was click the home page... :'''''''( there you are... so happy... just seeing your words.. they have nothing to do with me.. but its like I never even existed.. and you have nothing to say to me.. WHAT WAS THE GOAL?????? damn you..
Do you think about me at all? Am i just wasting my time... I NEED to find out... I dont know if i can hold on another 10 days....
Serious? That's your new gf? What? My friend says I'm better looking than her and personality? You were with me for 2,5 years, you knew my personality right? Who else would love you the way I did? Seriously, grass is not always greener in the other side of the fence, everyone are telling me that you will regret, surely you will regret One day.
They tend to go for people who are completely different from their previous partners. I'm the complete opposite of my ex new bf. She even said it herself to friends, but she seems to like it. So maybe your ex likes the fact that his new relationship is different from what he had with you.Quote:
Originally Posted by Cinnabella [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I cant stop... just thinking of when we used to lay together in your bed.. holding each other close..just talking.. lips almost touching.. just getting so lost in that feeling and loving to just be with each other..how did you forget that......?
I was similar to my ex's ex except for the fact I dont look at gay porno and lie.Quote:
Originally Posted by confusius [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]
I cant take it anymore.. we promised to love each other forever and for always.. well as far as I know, forever is not here, and I AM NOT DONE YET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So, you lied to me about having to move back home in order to help your parents out considering you're moving to Canada within weeks. Also, you say you're going for school which I could believe but I know it's mostly because of that guy. I don't give a flying f*ck about him. STOP TELLING ME HOW YOUR GOING TO GO WITH HIM AND HE'LL BE WITH YOU WHEN YOU GET BACK. You get so mad that all my friends will delete you from Facebook and abandon you with the drop of a hat. Yet all your friends are still friends with me -- especially since every friend of your's I met, liked and loved me. Commented that I was a really nice guy and to treat you right because you've had bad relationships in the past. That's hilarious because I know now why -- YOU destroy them. I gave you everything you ever wanted and was the nicest person ever. EVEN after you broke it off, I didn't act bitter or anything. All my friends hate you and you get pissed off when they delete you. Enough to send them a message about it. Guess what? You f*cked up. You cheated and you're still trying to be on top in the situation? Yeah, f*ck that.
YEAHHHHH that one guy!!!
I really hope im not wasting my time
i really hope that you are ok and feel better from your fever dear, hmm its almost 4 weeks now we being apart and i really hope that you miss me like i miss you, shit im still wearing our ring now thought of taking it off but i just need some time to recover from this. Are we getting back together again someday? if we do i really hope that i will still love you the same way as i do now but im scared the feelings might not be the same..
Wish we could just talk and put all this behind us. Hate to think our 18 months together ended in me being angry with you and our relationship ending.
Just wish we could say goodbye once more on good terms. I know you are hurting and that's the last thing I ever wanted, we can't change what happened but we don't have to leave it like this
If it helps, I think you can't waste your time in your lifetime. C'mon, you once were the very first of millions and managed to grow into a healthy human being. Everything in life is experience, regardless if it hurts or not. :DQuote:
Originally Posted by DarkHelmet82 [Dear Guest/Member you have to reply to see the link.click here to register]