Originally Posted by bluesummer
I spent a good portion of my life struggling with depression, and it is a very tough thing to beat. It can control you and ruin your life if you really allow it to take you over. For years I was insecure, sad, anti-social, always tired, suicidal, angry at everyone who I thought had a better life than me. Any little small thing that happened that made my day worse would make me certain that the world was a horrible place and that i'd rather just die. I never smiled. I kept very few friends.
I don't know how I got out of it honestly...it was more like a slow progression. Had to start talking to myself and convincing myself that things weren't as bad as they seemed. I think now that I'm 'cured' if you could call it that. I know it sounds like cutesy crap, but its true. I'm actually I'm amazed I didn't swallow a bottle of pills years ago, so I consider it a huge personal accomplishment that I'm even here, and that I've managed to turn it around.
I really feel for any of you dealing with this, because I know how ****ing awful it is. It is beatable though.
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