According to your profile on here, this is your DOB: May 31, 1993 (age 20). That's one year older than I am, and I thought you were young... Oh jeez...
Anyway, I don't think that you're straight forward. I think that you're afraid of in-person confrontation. I believe this because I have a similar trait. Bottom line, you feel like the only way you can escape the fact that you're lonely is to delve into an online world. That's clearly evident through the way that you've spent so much time trying to make this work with this girl. But what you're missing when you do this is the fact that not all girls "hate" you. Yes, I put the word hate into quotes because I don't feel like they actually hate you. From what you describe, it's just that they don't really interact with you. To hate someone is to go out of your way to make them feel hurt and really show them they entirely despise your very existence...whether by telling you directly they wish you were dead or another way.
As for your "friends" (again, notice the quotation marks), you attracted people like that because you allowed yourself to be taken advantage of. I'm more than certain you can make friends with similar interests if you put yourself out there and just keep trying. Remember that every person is different, and by that they all have different likes and dislikes. Do you think every person in your town hates online gaming? I highly doubt that. All you need to do is keep trying to make friends and talk to people in real life, and if you run into someone who does not share your mutual interests, keep going. Just because one person doesn't share similar interests with you doesn't mean another person doesn't. And look for the signs of those who will take advantage of you the way your "friends" did so you can weed out the people who will only hurt you.
(Wow, I sound like my psychologist... O.O Anyway...)
Now, to tackle your "relationship", I hate to say it, but it very well sounds like you are being naive, no offense. Look at the facts. You're halfway around the world from her, and you have never met her in person. All you do is IM, so you're not even sure if she truly exists. It could be a great ruse. How would you feel then? You don't even know if she returns your feelings. Maybe she doesn't want a long distance boyfriend. I know I wouldn't.
And what you're feeling seems, to me, more like infatuation. Yes, I agree that it is possible to fall in love during long distance. BUT it is incredibly rare that it works out and very rare that it happens. That being said, your willingness to entirely devote yourself to putting her on a pedestal without considering your feelings tells me that you're setting yourself up to be a doormat just the way you did with your "friends." I've been through that way too many times, so I know exactly how that feels. You need to remember that a relationship is give and take- equal effort. When you put someone on a pedestal, it either sets you up for being taken advantage of or it leads the other to feel uncomfortable.
You clearly understand what it means to deeply care for someone, but your entire post seems more like you're telling me you want to be her doormat instead of her lover. I say this because, while love is all about giving, love between two people is meant to be mutually shared...never one person taking without giving at least as much. Love is returned as well as given when it is shared between two people. If you're falling in love at all, it sounds like it's with the idea of someone sharing a similar interest as you, not actually falling in love. This is, no doubt, backed up by the fact that you really haven't talked with her in depth to the point where you completely understand her entirely and she understands you entirely... Bottom line; I don't think it's the best idea for you to go chasing this. It won't be good for your social health, as well as good for your heart. Long distance relationships, though glamorized countless times by romantic movies, have a lot of strain on them because of the time the two are apart. This can lead to jealousy and insecurity as well as fighting and hurt feelings. I know this because I've been in a few long distance relationships, and none of them were pretty. They all ended with breakups and disgusted feelings. Not to mention, if you are falling in love with the idea of her like I strongly believe, meeting up in person can lead to many hurt feelings if she doesn't live up to your expectations of what you felt she would be like...
I can go on and on and on until my keyboard literally falls apart under my fingers, if you'd like, telling you all the reasons why you shouldn't do this. But it sounds like you won't even listen.
Wait till you've had some more experience or until you're a bit older; maybe then you'll understand a little more.
