Hi, I really need your help. I've got a few questions that have been keeping me up all night.
There's this guy, I've known him for at least 3 years. But I only started to properly notice him about 6 months ago. Maybe it was because he had a girlfriend at that time, but he just never really crossed my mind. We were only acquaintances. Now I'd actually call us friends, not very close ones, but I do see him as a friend.
We have the same group of friends. So I see him whenever we go out, which is usually once every two weeks.
He's a big football (soccer) fan, so he had invited me to come to one of the games with him and some of his friends. He's in a fan club and pretty much crazy about that one team. I've never been really interested in football, or in any sports for that matter, but I wanted to see him, spend time with him.
Now, before I write too much random stuff, I just want to list the things I've noticed about myself, which make me question if I do like/love him. I don't think I've ever been in love. I've had crushes on mostly famous actors or singers, but I've never felt the butterflies.

- I go to every party if there's a slight chance of him being there
- I'm terribly disappointed when he's not
- I hate seeing him talk to other girls
- I feel so comfortable around him
- I want to know everything about him
- I want to kiss him/hug him
- He's perfect to me
- I imagine a future together (I know that's a bit weird)
- I always make sure I look good when I could meet him somewhere (I always shave perfectly, wear perfume, do something fancy to my hair,..)
- I'm always looking forward to seeing him

But:
- There are no butterflies

So do you think I fancy him? Might I even be in love?
Do I need to kiss him to feel the butterflies?

And then there's the second part, his side of the story, which is probably even more confusing to me than my own feelings.

We've had a few pretty deep conversations. We talked for hours about our hobbies, jobs, etc.
But he had always drunk alcohol when he talked to me. He also once placed his arm around me, but he was drunk there, too. He hugs me quite regularly, usually every time we say goodbye to each other.

Now at those football games, he always ignores me. Beofre them he texts me all the details, which seems like he really wants me to be there. But when we're there He just doesn't acknowledge me at all. He talks to the other guys.
He also has never asked for my phone number. We write on social media though.
That's the weird thing. He's often messaged me. Sometimes randomly, just asking questions like what I am doing. But it's always him, messaging me. And he doesn't seem to want the conversation to end, he always asks questions.
He seems genuinely interested in what I think. But only online. In real life it's like he always changes his mind. There have been days where I got home from a party where I was sure that he was not interested in me at all. And then he's so cute again.
I just don't know.
It's weird.

Sorry for the long text, I just need to get this out. I can't sleep. Hopefully I can get some answers from you.

And if there's any typos, I'm sorry, I really am tired.

Thanks in advance
Emma