I called her..

[Lifetime]

Some of you may have read my story a few weeks back, so you'll know about my relationship and all that jazz.

Well, today was Easter so the family came over. I decided against my better judgement to have a couple beers. I haven't drank for months, the main reason being that I knew I would get depressed, start thinking about her and call her. Well sure enough, I came up to my room, fought my conscience for a few minutes, and texted her. She told me "don't do this to me. bye". I didn't answer, and about a minute later she texted me asking to call her, so I did. We talked for about an hour about us, how she feels, how I feel, how we still think about each other. She told me she resented me for being the way I was, and forcing her to leave me. She told me that even though she isn't in love with me, she still loves me to pieces. We cried the whole time, eventually we just hung up, saying maybe we'll talk again in the next few months.

I just feel horrible now, like I'm back at the beginning. Just a friendly reminder to everyone that calling your ex after a month or two of no contact is probably a really, really bad idea. Keep that in mind.

[confused&single]

We all break. We've all been there. It's frustrating and confusing and undoubtedly heartbreaking. Just when you think you have it together or together enough to talk to your ex, you break down and dial their number and all of the emotions come flooding back. We didn't talk but he messaged me on FB for the first time in 4 weeks. I was actually content with things now all I want to do is call him and beg him to reconsider. It's so frustrating. In a couple of days you'll be better again, just take this as a lesson learned and focus on bettering yourself during this time. Hang in there.....

[Lifetime]

Yeah. I am pretty embarrassed to say it even on an anonymous forum but for some reason I thought it would be a good idea to lie and tell her I had some other girl now. Which I definitely don't, in fact I've hardly spoken to any girls except a close friend of mine since we broke up. I thought maybe it'd make her think I was doing fine without her, but it doesn't really work when I'm blubbering about how much I miss her at the same time. I've had a pretty good life, and this break up is definitely the most hurt I've ever felt. Wish I would have just left it be.

[keywesty]

Man, hang in there. I've initiated the No contact rule and it's friggin killing me. It's very hard but the truth is it does help. I'm still really bothered about my break-up but to be away from the pain and not expose myself to it anymore had made a difference. If your not talking to her or hearing from you she can't hurt you anymore. Sounds like you've hurt enough. Don't allow yourself to open that door again. I know it''s hard man, I really do but in the long run no contact is the way to go!