Depressed

Married male here, been married for 17 years.

Had a crush on one of wife’s friends since we first met. Never has a day gone by that I didn’t think of her in some capacity.

Three years ago she started working at the same place I do, became my best friend during work hours.
We talked a lot, work stuff family stuff etc etc...

Crush only grew stronger to the point she was always on my mind, she’s been married for past 10 years, with 2 kids.

I want her , so I decided to tell her.

Her response, she was flattered but loved her husband !

And we can remain good friends!

Bullshit.
I don’t know what she means by flattered.

I don’t want my wife anymore, I’m tired of her.
But I can’t have the one person I’ve wanted since 2001.
Feel like my life is wasted now.

Sometimes I think about suicide just to get away.

I would seek professional help if you feel this depress because you can't have a women that you desire. You've known all a long that she is taken and yet you still let yourself fall down this rabbit hole. She clearly that she loves her husband, so you need to respect that.

I feel sorry for your wife. Why are you tired of her? Are the problems with the marriage?

I know. My own damn fault.

No , no problems . Just she’s not anything like the one I want ! She’s not attractive, or as friendly she’s the opposite.

I dunno what to do anymore !

No, me n my coworker will not remain friends, if I can’t have her then I don’t need to even speak to her anymore

Was your wife attractive or friendly 17 years ago? Do you have children together? It's natural to lose some spark in the relationship after so many years.

Would you rather be by yourself or with your wife? I am just trying to get a feel for where you are coming from.

Yes both attractive and friendly back then

Yes a daughter 10 and a son 17

I’d rather be with the only one I’ve ever wanted, but, she loves her husband too much .