I like my best friend's girl!
Hello. I'm just going to get right to the point here.
There's this girl that has been in my school for the last four years, but I've never gotten to know her at all until the beginning of the semester, where I've been sitting next to her at a table.
So we've been getting to know one another for the last three months, and it got to the point that we're actually pretty good friends now. She's very smart, friendly, and pretty. She's the type that doesn't drink and wouldn't do drugs, much like myself. She's really, you know, innocent.
However, in the last month, I've really started to like her. Now, here's the catch: she's going out with my best friend! (Let's call him John)
They've been dating for a bit longer than a year. They usually spend their time out of class together, kissing or necking or cuddling or whatever you want to call it. The weird thing is that they're completely different. She plays violin and French horn and is into classical music and is very anti-violent, while he listens to heavy metal and plays trombone in the band (along with me) and is into a lot of forums and violent-type video games. Without going into greater detail, they are polar opposites. My other friends and I have been wondering, ever since they started going out, how they got together in the first place.
Anyways, I really like her. I was talking to my other best friend (let's call him Mike) about my feelings (weird!) for the past few weeks. Now here's the other catch: the girl that I like now knows that I like her! (VERY LONG STORY)
So now she knows, John knows, and Mike knows (although Mike is on my side). The day after she found out, she sent me an email explaining that she's very flattered that I like her, and that it isn't awkward for her, and it isn't awkward for John (which strangely enough seems to be true, but I don't talk to him about it) and that she'd definitely like to still be friends because I'm a "great guy". I responded in agreement that I'd also definitely still like to be her friend as well and so on. In the next email that she sent me, she said that it was unfortunate for me that she wasn't single. So now I know that she must like me too.
Now, here's the thing. I've been thinking about her all the time lately. Not obsessively or obscenely or anything like that. And the more I think about her, the more I feel this weird pain inside of me. Whenever I see her, for some reason, even if I'm having a crappy day, I start to lighten up. She just does that.
However, lately when I see her, I just start to feel like crap. Like, I still am able to talk to her like there's nothing wrong, but I see her everywhere! She's in the senior band (along with John, who I sit right beside), ski team (which hasn't started yet) and that one class that I'm in with her.
I'd just like some general advice as to what I should do here. I really like her, and she likes me back, and I have the feeling that if she and John broke up, she would go out with me, and knowing that should make me really happy, but it sometimes just makes me feel worse.
I know I sound like a whiny baby or something, but all these feelings are just confusing the crap out of me. I've never felt this way about anybody before!
Just a little advice would be nice.
Thanks!
