Is it a crush? I feel stuck.

Hello! I'm new here. I'm glad I've found this forum. Love is such an interesting subject to talk about.:D Especially since I have very few people to talk to in my life right now.

Edit - I decided to delete because I posted names. You never know, who will read this. ;)

Wow that sounds tough Lana. I understand your loneliness, but is he the only guy you could get to know right now? Is there a chance you could invite him for a chat coffee elsewhere away from the prying eyes of your neighbour? You also probably don't know the full extent of their past/current involvement so it could be kind of awkward especially if they are still involved.
Sounds like you need to regain some self confidence after your difficult past, maybe trying to get out in general and meeting people of both sexes might be easier. At least you won't be under your neighbours scrutiny.
best of luck!

Is he in the phonebook?
Can you slip him your email address somehow?

Thank you very much for your reply, Brigitte! I will keep your advice in mind.

Hi, Volk!
Thanks for the ideas. I don't know his surname or email address. I tried to find a phone number of the small business he's got, without luck so far. That's what makes it so hard to find the way forward.

I need to come up with a more crufty plot. ;)