she wants me to become a pastor
we once called off our relation with my mutual partner... if you have looked through my previous topic called " she said "CRUSH" only" you will see what I mean... She went back with me after a few days and said that she will never leave me again because she loved me after all and that I was the only guy that loved her this much and she sees my determination of being with her... I can also see that she is very persistent in talking with me... she doesn't have a cellphone but she tried her best to talk with me everyday by borrowing cellphones from her classmates and even chatting with me in yahoo messenger. It is clear that we were back again... and I was happy at that time. I can also see her determination... She's wants to have a close relation with my family as well.
However... the next problem arises... she wants to become a pastor someday... after graduating from Highschool and college and getting a job for a few more
years then enter Bible College... those are her plans... she planned that by
herself two years ago... actually I also have the opportunity of becoming pastor
as well since we were both official members in the church by now. But what troubles me is that she wants to advance into full ministry someday... and me? I still need to figure that out if I want to be a pastor... because ever since I was a kid, I never really wanted to be a pastor... I don't feel God calling me to become a pastor... I talked to her with this many times now saying that I don't feel God's calling about me going into full ministry... Me and her were deeply hurt with what we revealed for ourselves. I am already in part time ministry since I am the youth music leader of the church and that I hold responsible for the Praise and Worship team but I don't have plans of going into full ministry. Ever since I told her those things, she told me that she also wants me to go to Bible College and that she believes that I have the calling of becoming one. She prayed REAL HARD that she will go with Bible College with me and that I will soon have that calling. I asked my other church members if they sensed me if I have one and they were silent about it. I asked my Mom and Dad about it and said that "It's really up to me" If I have the desire of becoming a pastor. I know it's not good to go to Bible College just because of my partner... I got to have the desire of becoming one... I also prayed REAL hard that someday God would reveal to me if I really had the call. But it just doesn't work... I kept praying but I can't feel it.
The problem is actually me this time. She has already set her goal. Both of us can't study very well with what we just revealed to ourselves. and it's
still a long way to go for us.