Is there still a chance for me?
Warning: wall of text! And mods, I didn't know where to post it so feel free to move the thread.
OK, it''s real embarassing and I wasn't sure on where to post it because it's a little bit of everything regarding the nature of the crap I'm in. English is not my natural language so I'm sorry about my bad language and that I keep it short.
I came across this real beautiful girl on a night out and we talked and I could feel the chemistry between us. I just felt how she was treating me differently. I'm 23 years and she was about the same age and we went home to her and we exchanged phone numbers. She asked me if I had sex before and not wanting to embarass myself I said that I have had sex. We started the foreplay and it was awesome.
Until the actual sex was gonna start. As soon as she was gonna put on the condom I was so nervous that 'it' died down and went flat. Suffice to say, she at least tried to comfort me and say it happens to all men. Still I was so effing embarassed that day.
Some anxiety-filled days later and I took contact with her again, hoping for another chance. Amazingly she gives me another chance. Unfortunately history repeated itself on that second chance and I was just devestated when I got home. I heavily doubted myself.
In my frustration I just went to the nearest pub that night and managed to finally get laid with another girl. She was amazing in the bed actually, and I wasn't nervous because I did not feel any emotional attachment. Still, that was a ONS more or less. At least I was assured there wasn't any medical reason for my 2 previous failures.
So what I wonder now is, do I have a chance with that first girl that I'm pretty much in love with? Or should I move on? We really got off good with eachother but she must think that I can't perform.
And I'm not sure I wanna contact her one more time, I think a rejection would devestate me. At the same time I can't let her go. I dunno what to do
