Explain my feelings? I'm quite young. (experienced opinions)
Okay, so.
I'm 21, so kinda' looking for someone a little older and wiser in love than me to give their input.
I've broken up with my girlfriend recently, when the break first come alight, i was destroyed, felt my heart had been ripped out and stood on. We had 2 holidays together, really good times and lots of fun memories, we were together for about 2 years.
However, i've worked in a social bar for very near 3 years now. When i started their i worked with this girl, we got quite friendly and ended up 'kind of' dating, just went out for food, occasional cinema trip etc. But we never went beyond kissing. However, this was making us quite awkward around eachother at work. So we both kind of sadly said it isn't working, we need to kind of forget about it and try being friends.
This made me feel bad due to the fact this girl was perfect for me, i struggle to pick out a flaw if im honest.
So since this, like i mentioned, i've had a long term girlfriend, and she had a boyfriend for about a year (which even at that time, made me a tad jealous!)
So i presume when this girl heard that i was now single, she was so different with me, very touchy, flirty and gave me a couple hugs within days. She told me to text her which i did. So we've been texting quite a bit over the last few days.
I guess, to me, this is my dream come true, i won't lie to myself or you, this is the girl who's always been right at the bottom of my heart. Why? i can't really tell myself that.
So what i'm asking is, even after nearly 3 years since i met her, and having a 2 year relationship with a lovely girl, and after touching and texting this girl, im so over my EX, and falling in love with this girl again.
So what i ask, (without it sounding cheesy) Is she the one for me? the main girl in my life and always will be? or is it just due to the fact we've worked together so i haven't had massive month long periods to not see her and move on.
I'm not even sure of this girls intentions, as soon as she found out i was single, she is so much closer to me, could she be using me, or genuinly like me? or is this for me only to find out and know.
Any input would be appreciated!