Healing and getting strange feelings.
Hi all :)
I am doing well, slowly healing after my breakup a few months back. Not feeling so low about everything and gradually my life is getting back to normal. My daughter is getting more and more well behaved everyday.. I feel like she is growing up! I have had more time and energy lately than i ever have, and feeling a lot more confident in myself.
One thing that sticks on my mind, is i have been getting these little highschool crushes on random people lately. Obviously i am in no rush to find someone and have no real interest in anybody. But, i am curious to why my thoughts and feelings are like this lately.
I try get out with friends once a week since my breakup, mainly just to branch out and meet new people and stay happy. Well in the past 3 weeks i have been out twice, and really enjoyed myself. Didnt see my ex either times which was a bonus! But the first night, i hung out with my girlfriend and one of her male friends. I know him faintly, we have spoken in the past.
He is a really shy quiet guy and we talked up a storm all night and had a laugh, said goodbye and that was that. Didnt exchange numbers or anything..
The next morning i found myself thinking about him, more than i should. I felt a huge attraction to him, when really there was nothing to indicate anything more than talking as friends. This lasted for a few days then the feelings just faded away.
Last night i went out for my birthday, another fun night had a few drinks. Ended up talking to an old friend who is a year younger than me, and we flirted.. He already had my number so today has been texting me off the hook asking to hang out and such.. I feel the same crush feeling i had before 2 weeks ago. I am not actually interested in him as such, just feel somewhat... excited about him. I have no idea why i am feeling like this!
Why am i crushing on men so easily like this? Its not even that i LIKE them, i dont even know what it is. lol
I am calling after the long weekend about counselling to start asap, i found out its completely free! :)
But i am just annoyed at how i am feeling these days.. Can anyone pinpoint what is going on with me? I just thought i would come here for some suggestions or experiences like this after a bad relationship breakup.
Thanks all :)