boyfriend on hookup dating sites
hello, last month i caught my boyfriend of 4 and a half years on a hookup site. i came across it when i tried to upload a pic id taken his fone n the browser showed the last page he had been on. i confronted him n asked of he had beem cheating or ever cheated on me. he told me that he had kissed a girl from work on a drunken staff party 2 years ago that he was good friends with and they both stopped the kiss n said they cudnt do it. the girl died nearly a year ago n a woman ahouls listen to her gut because i remember thinkn he was takin her death very badly for a work colleague. i am the type of person who could forgive a kiss but what bothers me is he continued to have a close friendship with her up to her death. shouldnt he have wanted to distance himself from her if she was a temptation? i cant help doubting that more happened with her.
as for the dating site, his excuse was that he had been wanting to propose to me but wanted to sleep with a woman first. can someone please explain this to me? i am 26 and he is 27 and maybe we got serious too young. we have been livin together for nearly 4 years. but what kills me is he has always been the one pushing ny level of commitment in our relationship. n before finding out this i trusted him 100%. he gave me the password n i could see that he had msgd women trying to meet for no strings sex. i left him for all of a week before i came back because this just seemed so out of character. since then i snooped n saw that this site wasnt a once off but there were others opened a few months before. i know ye probably think im stupid but i wanted to forgive him as he said he hasnt slept with nyone because "he chickened out n cudnt do it n it was just online" but i dont think i can. i think about it every day. when i first approaches him about other sites he blatently lied to my face. he says he wont go on the sites again n it seems he hasnt so far but i just keep driving myself crazy thinkn has he really been playing me all along and cheating. how am i ever goin to know the truth?! has nyone ny experience with their partner on hookup dating sites? the thing is i dont want nyone else. and as **** up as what hes done i really believe he loves me but im starting to think love is not enough of a reason to stay together
