he broke my heart and I nead your thoughts on this please.
So, I had a boyfriend for almost two years. We were in a long distance relationship, he's american and I'm european.
Over all our relationship has been pretty good, with upps and downs like most relationships. However, the past three months
has been rough. I've gone through something dificult in my family and haven really been able to be the happy girl I usually am,
and I think I've been way to pessimistic, a bit clingy perhaps and just fragile. He's been very distant and the last couple
of weeks we barely talked, but he kept texting I love you so much and I miss you pretty much everyday.
I confronted him on the phone, I was tired of being neglected all the time. We didn't talk for over a weak, he barely
responded to messages etc. I could just feel that something wasn't right. I told him how I felt, and that I felt like we were not
in a relationship since we didn't stay in contact. Long story short, he ended up saying, okey I think we should break up, I know
it's the right thing to do. He told me he really love me, he was crying and he said he would miss me so so much etc.
I questioned his decision and he acted rathercoldly and said that I will never get him back, that he could be my friend as long
as I'm not trying to get him back because it is not going to happen. Nedless to say, I'm just devastated.
I will even study in America from the fall 2015, and I asked him if he didn't even want to see how that goes, he said No.
We talked for a while, about memories and things, he kept telling me about things he loved in our relationship, and how happy he's
been while I were with him in america. At the same time he were saying that he started to feel this the last couple of times he had me there,
which I can understand a little bit since I wasn't all myself. He said he's been thinking about it, leaving me, but that he didn't
dare to take that step because he was affraid to make a misstake, he also said he wanted to see if his feelings would change.
I think I pushed him over the edge a little bit, but I can't help thinking that it's odd that he kind of decided to leave me just like that,
so súddenly. I'm also thinking that it must be completly impossible to tell someone you love and know you will miss that his feelings
that has grown colder for me never will change, right? I mean, it makes sense to feel like that when you break up, otherwise it's rather pointless
but who knows how you'll feel in a month or two. How can someone possibly know the outcome of leaving someone they talked with pretty much
everyday for two years? I mean even I can't be sure what I feel about him as time passes. He also said that he can never be what I nead, it was rather hurtful because i think he is a good person. Very confused about what he wants in his life, but not at all a bad person.
I just really nead some other peoples thoughts on this, I'm just left hearbroken and chocked.
I'm trying to be calm and not get too low, but it''s difficult. I'm pending between crying and feeling strong, feeling hope
and feeling hopeless.
I think he's been treating me pretty bad, and just hope that he will realize what I mean to him.
I've always been there to support, and as he himself said have a lot of love in my heart.
We are in nc for few weeks, he decided that and I will respect it.
I miss him so much it hurts, but whatever happens I hope that we at least can build up the friendship
between us again somehow, I don't want him out of my life even though I feel very hurt by him atm.
