It hurts still loving my ex

[Gadgitt]

I been in a relationship with my ex for 6years. We broke up 4years ago because i felt she was cheating. Multiple people told me this but i waz to blind to see. I still broke up with her. I have two great kids with her but now they are with me while she is having her fun i guess cause she never call and check on the kids. What im trying to get at is its been 4years and i still cant get over her. I know shes not the one for me but she was my first love and i haven't found another yet.I dont go out bbecause im too busy working and taking care of my kids. Im shy and its hard to let a girl im attractive to know that i find her beautiful. Idk, if i dont, i guess ill play with myself the rest of my life until i find the right one. (sad) Somebody please help me out.

[smackie9]

Pay for a damn babysitter and go out. And stop thinking about your ex....that's the reason why you are still alone. Stop feeling sorry for yourself and get off your ass and do something about it. Maybe that's why things have always sucked for you, you never had any ambition to actually accomplish anything in your life. Get on it.