I have posted my story on here...I guess Im asking a question..Im writing this with floods of tear comnig down my face... my ex would say I was to sensitive and need to get over it and move on...
Thing is.. can I be honest with you I just dont know how to stop the pain....I think of how easy this is for him and all the support he has around him then I look at me and how i feel inside and wonder why do I have to hurt so bad inside. I feel so sick and want to believe that it will go but I dont think it can or will because I love him so much. I see him everywhere in the house we lived in ...In the mirror in the garden...Flashbacks to the fun the playing around and I feel my heart pounding in my chest....Is it normal to want so badly to drive to him and try to get it back to turn the clocks back and want him there with me so I can hold his hand....There I go again ...the tears are just falling. Im in love with a man .....I dont think this man ever loved me to put me through this pain. I feel beside myself and even doing the little things is difficult for me...Does this sould crazy...Ive been sat here for 3 hours with my gy bag packed .....cant move Im frozen...oh my god what is going ot become of me ??? How do I get through this I just dont know how to do it. Ive never felt so low ....so at the bottom......i loved his family and they just cut me out....they never really cared about me...dont care how i am ...or worst still feel I am to blame for all of this when really all I did was try to make him happy... He never really did much for me and said i was to sensitive over life. Please what do I do...I must be a bad person ...unlovable and unable to keep a relationship together........I know i will never see him again or hear from him and I dont know how to deal with this...Does it really get better or does iit carry on hurting inside.....I dont want to hate people but all the seem to do is hurt me...
Words from knid people on here are the only thig Ive got ......its the only thing that keeps me going ......please is there hope....please I just can get up