...and yes, the baby is mine. (i'm doing a DNA test anyway just for the sake of my mental health)
I found out a month ago and I'm still devastated.
How do I start? Well...I'm 27 and she's 24, we started dating 2 / half years ago, back then we both recently finished our long term relationships with our ex's, it was a coincidence because we both had a 6 years relationship with our past couples and finished it almost at the same time, so we started dating and everything was great, we didn't want to fell in love so we just had casual sexual encounters each friday, later we started having dinner together, movies, etc...we fell in love and asked her to be my GF 5 months after we started dating.
Additional fact: she has a 4 year old son, she NEVER wanted me as his kid father, but the kid himself asked me if I wanted to be his father (after 2 years of dating his mom) so how could I say no?
We had 2 amazing years, the best years of my life, she was the woman I wanted to marry, she's VERY intelligent, she's a passionate reader and writer, she's gorgeous...oh man yes she is, our sex life is awesome, she loves me a lot, she's always been there in my sickness, when I was unemployed and needed money for my skin treatment (i have eczema), she's been always there, in every situation good or bad.
A year ago we moved in together, I finally got a job and we started splitting bills but she always paid more than me
Another fact: she told me she was working in a small construction company, her job was closing projects with customers, she keeps telling me that job was real but she needed an extra income being an "escort" (prostitute...)
So, months after we moved in together I started to notice her more worried about money, somehow she was no longer getting paid enough...so I srated being suspicious...a month ago one of her friends (a girl that i never meet before) came to our house and called her by a diferent name and BOOM! I realized there was something wrong and started my research, later i found her pictures in a private group of my hometown in internet, an escorts group...damn...I was dead inside.
I immediately confronted her, she was in shock, she couldn't believe i discovered her, she started lying about it, that she "quit a long time ago but the pictures were still there" "I quit when i fell in love with you" "if you call they will send another girl that looks like me" and more and more bullshit...
I kicked her out of my house but she has no place to go, her parents can't mantain her and she's unemployed now (the company where she used to work "went banktrupcy" and lost her job in October last year and couldn't find a new one due to pregnancy) I had no other choice but accept her back, being honest I wanted it because I still love her so much, It's incredible I know but god damn I really love this woman.
All this past month we've been trying to work things out, she's doing all she can to have my trust back, she's really trying her best, she apologized and show real remorse, she was a desperate single mom that needed the money, but I can't stop feeling betrayed, blind and stupid for not discovering this shit before.
She said she quited from that job for good and would never go back, she's planning to sell imported products from our house and later renting a commercial local (she's very enthusiastic about it), she wants a normal life but I'm so confused, I really love this woman, I really want things to work out, and the most important I really want to trust her again...but right now i can't
Everything was progressing fine, but 2 days ago I found out she used to have a man that paid her monthly, like a salary...obviously for regular sex, this killed me again, when I asked her she didn't accept it and i have no proof about it, I feel there's more details but she won't talk to me about it and I can't stop dwelling more and more...i'm getting very paranoid
About the baby, she said she's 100% sure is mine, we discussed and she has no problem if I make a DNA test which I will for sure...
Another fact: we'll start going to couple therapy in a few days, this will be my last try
Sorry for the long post, any advice will be appreciated.
And sorry for my english, is not my mother tongue.