Major overhaul....too hasty?
Ok, well, I won't bore you with the details, but my life is a complete and utter mess. After my father died I've been having a very hard time coping (though nobody really notices, I tend to hide it quite well), am having serious issues with my mother whose behaviour I will just call irresponsible. I can't concentrate worth a damn, so my study (business administration) is clearly suffering. Besides the fact I can't study cause of my problems, the study itself sucks major ass in my opinion. And now the failure with this girl is added which annoys me to despair.
So I've been playing with some ideas. First: I need to get out of the house. Second, I don't know if I want to do this study anymore, but seeing as it has already taken me four years, it would be a shame to just stop.
So here's the plan. I'm gonna try and get my bachelor this year (which will be tough, but with a bit of motivation it should be do-able) and quit business administration. I'll join the army, and get into the Royal Military Academy (sort of Dutch Westpoint) and train in becoming an officer in the Dutch Army. Seeing as I'll need to be on the base the problem of me getting out of the house is solved, I'm still working on my future, and I'm getting payed for it as well. If I decide to want to get my master in Business Administration I can still do that after I'm done with Military Academy (in theory the master is only a one year course). Off course that wont make my love problems magically disappear, but as I'll be consumed with military training, there wont be much time in getting over this girl, and time will heal the wounds I guess.
Now my problem. Is this a decision I'm making way too hasty? Is my mind being clouded by the sewer my life has become the last year? Or am I doing the right thing to cut loose from my past and start over?
On really romantic evenings of self, I go salsa dancing with my confusion...