Damn it I miss her

[Junket]

It's driving me mad.

I want to see her so bad.

But I'm mixed.

I think the whole "out of sight out of mind" thing is at work here.

She doesn't express her feelings well through words so while talking to her on the phone or whatever is good, it can feel so "dry" sometimes.

I'm still the one who usually initiates any phone conversations, and while right now the prospect of calling her is nothing exciting, it's like as soon as I hear her voice I feel better and the conversations just flow.

I'm falling back into my "old" self. The one who feels like I don't need intimacy to get along, and I don't, I really don't. But I feel so good when I do have it. I remember when I saw here again in NOLA, it all came flooding back. I want to see her I need to see her but half of me is just so pissed at my situation that I feel like it'd be better to just shut down and cut off all my commitments, to her and to everything else.

I need to feel her again.

**** me and this situation.

**** the police.

**** the government.

**** the law.

**** **** **** ****.

I just wanna live my god damn life.

[Junket]

And y'know, I was just thinkin' about it...

She's been sayin' her New Years resolution is to be "nicer" to me.

She's constantly saying that I'm so much "nicer" than her.

Which basically means I do tend to express my feelings for her much more than she does to me.

And before I was just like "whatever, it's no big deal, I understand, blah blah".

But now that I think about it...yeah...that's something I want...that's something I need, this feels so one sided sometimes, I feel like I like her and she's just kinda like "whatever". My ego needs to be fed too, I need to know that I'm wanted...if I am wanted.

Give and take.

[entrapment]

does she know how you feel?

you need her and she treasures you. it shouldnt be a prob as long as you're willing to talk things out with her. "give and take" - thats the key and i admire pple who recognize and practice that.

sometimes its more than just words that show how much one loves.

[Gigabitch]

How ya' doing, Fras?

[Tiay]

Aw Fras, I've been there. I immerse myself in college work and my friends so much that usually I don't get the "it's driving me mad, I can't take it anymore" feeling, but it still happens. It'd be a bad sign if it didn't.

It's soooo important for couples to tell each other what they need. Too many couples exist in a state where they're both showing they love each other, but they're showing it in the way that they themselves would like to be shown, not in the way that the other person needs to be shown.
So If you need her to be open about her feelings, then you gotta let her know. And be watchful of what she needs. But you already knew that...

I hope you get to see her soon, Fras. Even if it's just for a weekend, or just a day- it's worth it.

[Junket]

Things are goin' pretty well between us.

As well as they can be goin' considering she lives a couple hundred miles away.

But we talked for 2 hours on New Years, and she's been openin' up a bit more.

I'm planning on seein' her this month, boss and the "situation" permitting.

[Gigabitch]

Yay for you, Fras! It's so important to kiss that girl. I hope you get to do it.

[Junket]

Yay for you, Fras! It's so important to kiss that girl. I hope you get to do it.

Oh, I've already done that, plus some.

But I intend on doin' it some more, ASAP.