This relationship ended three years ago. When we broke up, we decided to remain friends but it hasn't really worked out well - basically we would have periods where we talk semi-regularly and periods where we don't talk at all. Up until last winter, I always held up hope that we would one day - albeit a miraculous day - get back together. However, since January I've pretty much made up my mind that I will only be friends with him (if at all..) So I thought things were going great, that I'm finally moving on..until he contacts me again asking why I don't talk to him anymore, making it sound like thats the way I want things to be...
WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM??!! It doesn't seem like he wants to get back together, so why does he keep wanting my friendship? What would cause a guy to keep wanting to befriend an ex? (I don't give him casual sex and he KNOWS it).
This is not the first time that I tried to cut contact with him. Everytime this happens he would initiate contact after a few months (even up to 6 months one time) and every time I would reciprocate. This pattern has been going on for YEARS. It is RIDICULOUS and I am fed up. I don't want this. If we cannot have a proper relationship, I don't want this half-assed, jerked up friendship, where everytime we see eachother there is sexual tension and we wind up getting physical (to the extent of oral sex only). IT F*CKING sucks shit. It's not possible to have a friendship with someone I am so attracted to physically. Of course, it's not just physical. The mental connection is GREAT, but I feel if that's all there was, I would be able to handle a freindship, since I won't want to jump his bones everytime I see him. And yet, I still really WISH we could have a normal friendship.
In my heart of hearts, I wish we could have another try, but I don't understand why I even WANT a relationship after he has hurt me so much. I don't know...this may be pathological.