SO>>>
last night was our work party i worked with him all day and at one point we were together and i was asking him about this coworker he used to like. she likes him A LOT. i asked how that whole thing was going cos she is bitter that he won't ask her out... she's this virgin which is fine but super christian and pushes her stuff on people but still gets drunk. i'm not such a fan she ended up getting wasted and crying all night. anyways, then he proceeded to tell me about her a bit and how the window of them has forever closed and how w/ his ex girlfriend the only person he ever loved it's closed. then he was like "honestly ali, i'm really happy with my life right now".
then. he really wanted to tell me this for some reason... he was like "i have really high standards for people i would date and you do too and we're not meeting up to eithers" i was like "what's that mean" and he was like well i haven't actually ever really tried to think to hard about what you're lacking in, and i told him not to think about the situation altogether and then he got all excited and was like i think you're just too cold and cynical and you're mean to me. which is very true, because i go above and beyond to knock down everythign he says. but i can't stop now?!
anyways, so then i changed the subject we just had small talk from there on out, went to his place and drank w /his brother. in front of his brother he called me "hunny" to which i said WHAT and his brother looked at me and he was like "yes baby" and then there was just this awkward silence and his bro just broke it by changing the topic but wtf is he doing?! then he kicked his bro out of the room he wouldn't let me leave to the party until i kissed him and he kept draggin me to bed to make out but finally we left.
then we went to the work party... this crazy sensitive chick who likes him came to me of all people to cry and complain about him, (everyone thinks we are just good friends since we work together especially) and then she left in a tizzy. we went back to his place after the party and banged he kept telling me i was so beautiful and saying things like i was amazing before after and during and that we were an amazing f*ck together whatever, that's just sex talk though doesn't matter. but it's little things like this morning he wanted to cuddle when he woke up and my alarm was going off and i went to turn it off and he got up and told me to stay and sleep that he would do it. i mean, i don't know what to think anymore... i almost just said i liked him and gave him the whole shpiel but i just could not do it!