Uhm... hi every one... I really did not know where to put this topic so i tried this sector... for last few months i can't sleep, eat and i have apsolutly no interest to anything that i was interested before... all i think about is just one girl... I really can't say this all in few senteces so i m gonna go a lil bit back in past... when all started...
4 years ago... I got in highschool and sit near most geekest guy i ever saw in m life... at least i tought so... i turned out he was a lazy ass looser after all ... i was ignoring him for about first full year and was hanging out more with buddy on the other side of my desk rather than with this looser... ironicly he became very good friend of mine... and so i ve eventually met his familly: his annyoying mom, wery calm father and his annoying fat lil sister who was 13 yrs old at time and i use to enjoy to make fun of her and kick her when she tried to sit in my lap or hug me (on my regret today)... yes... that is the same girl that is drivin me crazy now... anyway... as time passed both of them became my friends and we had alot of fun time together (not to mention towel fights xD)... more time i ve spended with her i started to realize i like her... by the time i finnaly admited to myself: ''OMG you stupid jackass this girl is BEUTIFULL!!! How could u ever ignore or reject her!! Or even think that she s fat!!!'' it was the worst possible time ever for me to realize that... She was dating the other guy from school that me and lazy ass friend were hanging out with... only thing is... we didn't know about it... to make it more dificult... he brake up with her... she loved him so much... she was crying for next few months... I was going to explode if i did not tell her that i like her... I just had to say it in wery bad time... She was still broken coz of my friend but i had to said it... i just couldn't hide it... all she said is it could never work out between us... as year passed and i finished highschool, she s now 17 i m 19... we became very close friends... every time we meet she has to hug me... has to kiss me... has to tell me something new that happend to her... i m no better than her... i have to do the same thing :S anyway... last saturday is the first time we were alone together (on coffe)... that was most interesting 2 hours i have ever spent in my life!! I LOVED EVERY SECOND OF IT! after we went back home there occured a lil conversation like this:
Me: Can i ask you something?
She:
-while i was saying that she removed smile from her face and took a rly serious look: Ok...
Me: Can i kiss you?
She: look i m sorry but i really don't have time for any boyfriends and stuff, i have a lot problems with school, with my parents...
Me:
-interrupted her: I did not ask to date you... I just asked you for one kiss...
She: Oh...
-Smile back on her face: well... ok...
Me:
-really big smile on my face xD
She: but not here (we were in the middle of street and there was alot off ppl)
Me: oh... yea... you r wright...
ye... when we get back to my car i could kiss her than... but... i didn't... i kinda... felt like she doesn't really want me to kiss her... so i just drive her home...
next day she said she ll take my lil syster to ice skating... we went there and even i got on ice even dough it has been 5 years i ve ever tried that ^^ man i broke my ass there xD lucky she did not see it... anyway... i drived her back home... she was kinda sad... so a new conversation started:
Me: Are u angry on me? did i do something stupid?
She: No... I m just tierd... And i have to study now... i have big test tommorow...
Me: oh... ok... well good luck than i guess...
She: when we gonna see each other again?
Me: -rly happy for her to be askin that: well i don't know... this week for sure?
She: how about tommorow? pick me up after work?
Me: Uh... yea sure! wanna go for coffe than?
She: yea that would be great...
we said goodbye and huged each other... next day (this monday) i was so happy that i m goin to see her today so i called her... asked her if she wanna go for coffe... she said she was too busy she got bad grade and has to study now ... that was looong day for me... i felt so lame and rejected... i couldn't even sleep whole night... to make it worst... next day i tried to call her again... she didn't answer the phone...first thing that poped in my head was: ''WTF DID I DO NOW???'' i was so sad and depresed that day... couldn't even sleep... so today... after i got that 2 hrs of sleep i am having fight in my brain:
CALL HER / DO NOT CALL HER
I tought... if i call her it will sound like i m pushing her... If i don't call her... Maybe she ll call me?? still has not called me but i know she rarely has money for calls coz she spends it all fast...
well... now i m here... askin you...
EDIT: notin to be asked from this post... look on the others...