I don't feel like I can keep this up...
For almost a month (but what feels like years and years) i've been following a hardcore NC approach. I haven't once contacted her since February. And not only that i've kept myself distracted. Books, going out, working out at the gym, making new friends, developing new hobbies, writing on here, etc etc... For a small stretch of time ( like maybe 3-4 days out of the whole time I haven't contacted her) I felt really good about things. I felt like i'm doing the right thing for me and it's gonna be better.. Now that good feeling is gone and I just feel emotionally drained. My thoughts are consumed by her every moment i'm awake, and even in my dreams. I've literally had several dreams about her since then. I miss her terribly and as everyone else with the same kind of problem has said for theirs, she was my best friend for a year and a half and I lost that.. Now I just feel an emptiness, sadness, loneliness that doesn't seem like it will ever be replaced.
Be careful with your heart, because when someone seems too good to be true, they usually are.