I agree with Vince. Join a gym, take yoga classes, join a co-ed volleyball/softball/dodgeball league. Start going to a church with younger members. If you live in a smaller city its hard. Maybe move to a bigger city, relocate for a change of pace. I was in your shoes. You can survive this. There are people on the other side of the fence wishing they were in your shoes, freedom with no baggage.
So, so you think you can tell Heaven from Hell,
blue skies from pain.
Can you tell a green field from a cold steel rail?
A smile from a veil?
Do you think you can tell?
And did they get you to trade your heroes for ghosts?
Hot ashes for trees?
Hot air for a cool breeze?
Cold comfort for change?
And did you exchange a walk on part in the war for a lead role in a cage?