Hey guys. This is my first post here, so hello (waves). I promise I'll post a proper into later, but I wanted to get this down beofre I rush off to uni.
So, I've met a girl at Uni who I am falling for. However, there are a few things that should be mentioned;
Firstly, I’ve known her for just under three weeks. I wonder if that is really long enough to know how you feel about someone? Still, I find her fascinating and the feelings are there so I guess they cannot be denied.
Secondly (and this the emo bit ), I find her fascinating because she is unlike anyone I’ve met before. Well traveled, bi-lingual, ridiculously smart, and incredibly funny. Why would someone such as her be interested in some boring sod like me when she could have anyone? I've never been out of my own country.
Thirdly, we are such good friends I do not want to risk ruining that by telling her how I feel. It happens and it sucks. The relationship is never the same.
When last we spoke we had hung out all day studying together and most of the night having dinner and chatting and walking and laughing like crazy people. When I dropped her off at her place and went to leave she gave me a certain look. There was a slight hesitation in her step and her eyes lingered on mine just a little longer than usual. It was a look that says you don’t want the other person to go, or that you’ve something to say but you aren’t sure just how to say it.
Now, I will be the first to admit that it is entirely possible that there was nothing there, that all of what I said above is simply wishful thinking. But what if it wasn’t....
During one of our conversations - and we have had several quite candid ones - she said that she appreciated people being straight up with her. I sneakily tried to gauge what her reaction would be if I told her how I felt and while I got no indication of her feelings towards me, if there are any, I was able to discern that if someone did tell her they liked her and she didn't feel the same she would take it in good humour and not think anything less of them. This is something I'm inclined to believe and somewhat negates my third point above however I don't want her to think that the only reason I hang out with her is because I'd like to date her. She is seriously fun to be with and that is why I hung out with her originally, the affections came later.
As I've kind of mentioned, we get on incredibly well. She laughs at all my terrible jokes (and they are terrible) so either she's being nice or has a shocking sense of humour. Our interests are similar and we seem to be on a similar wave length. One important factor that should be mentioned is that she is from Canada and has come to Australia to study. Once that is over (in two years) she plans to move on. So, going into this I know it may very well be over in two years, but even knowing that I would still love to be with her for that time. However, one must ask the question of if I know she's leaving would it not be better to simply remain friends?
Maybe I'm thinking this through too much?
So, the question is should I say anything? Should I wait and see if I can get more of an idea as to if she has any feelings for me or should I just be friends with her for the two years before she leaves?
I'd really appreciate an thoughts, comments, suggestions, cream buns or anything anyone is willing to give, and I thank any that do in advance.
Cheers.
P.S. I should also mention that we are hanging out studying again tomorrow. I could tell her then as it would be just the two of us or take the opportunity to again try and figure out if she feels anything towards me. Suggestions?