Its been now 8 months ish since my ex and I split and about 3 since we stopped fighting. I read several of the stories here and I have to admit, i was in the same mindset....completely done. lost. sad. depressed. life fell apart. all the usuals when you break up. I lost my job, got a dui, quit a band, lost myself, moved a couple times, all that stuff. Whether coincidence or no, it all happened right as I broke up with her. Our relationship was toxic and awful, I'd havta write pages to really let someone understand how things were. But. I loved her.
Obviously a part of me still does or I probably wouldnt be posting this.
Couple weeks ago I tried to get in touch with her on myspace (bless it haha). I finally got to the point where I wasnt mad anymore, where I was ready to say hello, tell her I hope everything is amazing for her. Why? Well I miss her sometimes and all the normal stuff.
But course nothing came about with attempt. Maybe someday the chance to forgive to her face will happen.
Least now I have a new job in my choice field, a new band that is really fun and slowly taking off in my area, and I am forgiving her AND MYSELF more and more each day. Funny how things come back together. So those out there hurting, I feel ya...And I'm excited to be doing what I love and the right girl is out there for me. My breakup story's turned into a new beginning story. I know how bad it can be....but it does improve.