My bf an I have been dating for over a year. He is a personal trainer and a track coach. He is 19 yrs.older than me but he is in very good shape. I met him at the Gym and for me it was love at first sight. He is very good at what he does and he is very athletic and active. I love him very much and living in the small island where we live a lot of people know him and im proud to say he is my bf.
But just this last Sunday i realized my boyfriend doesnt feel as proud as i am to be my bf. you see he is a trainer that has a fat gf. He has tried to help me lose weight but my bad food obsession holds me back. He gets angry and frustrated and told me he feels embaressed to tell people he is my bf. He says thats why we dont go out much and why he walks ahead of me at times and doesnt kiss or hold my hand in public. He says I have no pride in my apperance he says my face is ridiculously beautiful but i will look even better if i lost some weight. He says he does love me but to be honest he would love me more if i lost the weight.
I have a very active Job plus 3 times a wk i run at 6am the other days i workout really hard at the gym i do spinning classes and i push myself really hard. But my eating problem doesnt help. Is hard to control it and because of it i get even more sad. my bf says they are just excuses and the fact is that i dont lose weight because im just simply lazy. which makes me feel even worst.
In bed he never seems to have a problem with the weight but in public he is embaressed. Im a very pretty girl im not concided but when i go out i always get hit on. Im not disgusting fat i just have big hips and bit boobs but flat stomach.
My boyfriends words hurt but he says i have to understand is do to his profession. Should i be mad? Even though in a way i think he is right to some extend?