Hey everybody, This is my first post and thread. I am Nat and I am in this very sticky situation and I don't know what to do?
I am 23 and she is 38
Well okay, I have been talking to her since the end of April. I started going out with her on 5/19/10 and things went off smoothly in the beginning. We never fight or anything. She is my perfect match in terms of zodiac signs, I am an Aries and she is a Leo. All the things it says online can truly relate to our relationship. She has two kids, One is 17 and the other is 14. They have different dad's, The oldest one knows me and his mom are together and is mad cool with me. The younger one does not know because technically his dad is still married to his mom(my girlfriend) but he is in jail for another say 5-6 years. She tells me they are separated though and she loves me, but she loves him too. They have a kid together and she was married to him for 14 years and he did everything for her, So I understand. I guess I jumped the gun too fast and fell hard, head over heels. Now I am always thinking about her and being with her and shit. We are about to hit 3 months together now and we just went on a cruise together for the whole week. So I was with her 24/7 for about 6-7 days and we finally had arguements and disagreements here and there. It made things shaky, but definitely made me realize I care and love for her so much. Her birthday was yesterday, and I showed up mad early in the am to surprise her with groceries and to cook her breakfast. I left and came back at night to surprise her again with my cousins with a lit birthday cake cause she was feeling down. I didn't really feel the appreciation and get like oh your the best boyfriend ever kind of thing, which I was expecting you know. I need to feel loved and appreciated. She also has no job and is struggling, She expects me to help her out and stuff, I don't mind helping her with the small things here and there. She just scored a job, hopefully that pulls through. I seem to be greedy and selfish with her though, Which I don't notice. Like I always do things I want to do, or to keep her to myself at all times. I feel like I am going crazy inside and don't know what to do, I always call/text her first thing in the morning, Am I showing too much affection? Should I let come to me now and stuff? I just want to have her love me and not feel like pulling my hair out all the time.
I love her so much, and I feel so attached. I am feeling hurt inside, have anxiety, can't eat as much, and I don't sleep well.