I am in love with someone.... my ex! Great!
Our relationship started out as perfect, the first 3 months were incredible, more love, fun, and sex than either of us had ever experienced. then it went really really crazy, i found out she'd been playing me and some other guy at the same time...stupid thing is i forgave her, and it happened about 3 times in total (same guy - her ex!), it got really crazy. in between all that we terminated a pregnancy. which took it toll on us both, i am still conflicted within myself about it.
anyway, i love this girl so much, i fell in love with her straight away, we both just had the most amazing time, we got along so well. but all this extra crazy shit has happened. we broke up several weeks ago but slept together 3 times since...we both always say how incredible the sex is, we're both in agreement that us together is the best thign there is in the world.
anyway we've not seen each other since then, she started seeing this other guy (only just found out)...but i started emailing her and telling her how much i love her...anyway, she said she would see me next week. which for me is great because it actually perked me up, i have felt like im totally loosing control of my life until she said that.
but really...although i love her so much, after everything, is it really a good idea?? does anyone believe in the one?? i dont....but then i think, if there was a one....its deifnitely her! without her i feel shit, but i dont know if too much has happened??
i also think just because we've lost a few battles, need we lose the war?!
im going on holiday at the end of next week, just a weeks break - sun sand and sea, ill be pretty much loning it but i really need the break. i just dont know what to do. i feel broken without her, but maybe i do need to just move on?
help?