A little backstory about our relationship
We have been together for 2 years and 5 months, I'm 20, and she's 18. We've been the kind of couple where neither of us was really allowed to talk to girls/guys on myspace, text, email, etc. Right now we are taking a 'break'. We have been acting like an old married couple for about a year, and rarely going out and doing things.
Just recently I had a feeling if she had been talking to guys on myspace because she was acting very shady about myspace. So I called her and she said she had.. so we both get off the phone and she texts me saying she doesn't know if she wants to be together anymore and for her to give her space. i told her if she doesn't know then we shouldn't be together. we are on a break now.
she's been hanging out with her ex bf of when she was around 13. He's now 16, and shes 18. She was even over there with some other ppl until 5 AM.
We hung 2 days ago and we talked and she told me she still wanted to grow old with me and that she just wants to run away with me and no one else, it was 100% sincere. There were tons of tears and she really missed us. We cuddled, and it was the best feeling in the world. Her dad also moved away last year and she was also crying saying she missed him. We looked through all of our old pictures, and we cried together, we kissed (our kisses were just so amazing and romantic), listened to all of our songs, we laughed, we watched "Dear John" and cuddled during the whole thing and when it was over we just hugged for like 2 minutes probably. We had an absolute blast with each other, and it was true love, and puppy love.
When we are always not with each other (99% of the time) of this last week, she kind of like tries to forget about me, and everything she has told me quickly seems like a lie, even though it was 100% sincere when she said it, and she goes and hangs out with other guys and people. We use to never go an hour without texting each other, but now its like 5 hours +. Everytime I ask her to do something she says no.
Last night she could tell I was having a hard time because I told her I was talking to my mom about stuff. She called me and told me to go look through all of the things she had made me that said she would always be here for me. She said all of this is going to make us have a healthy and better relationship. She was drinking so I believe these were her true feelings.
What I think is going through her head is this: She just wants a break and wants to have fun without me. She said it makes her depressed when she thinks about the situation so she goes and hangs out with people and just tries to forget. I think she truly wants us but wants to take it slow, and start from scratch.
What do you girls think? Please help me, I love this girl with all of my heart and don't want to ever lose her. I want to marry her, and start a family with her. I want to die with her. Please help..