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HALP!
I recently broke up with my partner of 2.5 years, (2.5 Weeks ago now). And I am struggling with myself. I am 20 years old and she is 25 Years old. We both love each other a lot and have even spoken of marriage and being together forever.
I organised a night with her because it was her birthday and she was going to her familys place up north for her actual bday. So I prepared a nice evening for her. Cooked a nice dinner, had a few cocktails and gave her presents. She looked like she was having the time of her life. When the clock struck 11:00 she asked me if its ok if she goes to town with her friend, I was confused and thought she would want to be with me for the night and foolishly answered yes thats ok. She told me to text her if I wanted to see her later, and she left.
I sat home alone for an hour or so, then started drinking more trying to understand what just happened, I texted her saying I was going to a friends place but I didn't actually go, I just went to town at 12:30am.
I texted her a few times and she didn't reply until 2:00am, she said she was at a certain club so I went there and could not find her.
I texted her again saying I was there and could not see her, she didn't reply so I started club hopping.
At 3:00am I finally found her at a random club, but to my surprise I saw another man behind her dancing, rubbing against her ass and hips, his hands were reaching round her waist and she was smiling and swaying her hips with him. She didn't know I was there at that point.
I noticed she had her handbag on the ground so she wouldn't have gotten my text messages.
I went bezerk at this point, because I was quite intoxicated and angry at this moment. I yelled at her F*** YOU! and pulled the fingers at her and the guy. I then pushed the guy over and tried to pull him off the balcony they were dancing on. She then jumped down and said what are you doing? we were just dancing!? I said to her "What the F*** are you doing? this is ****ed up". I then walked away.
She left up north for a week the next day as planned, during this week I didn't contact her and I put all her belongings that was at my flat into plastic bags and went over to her flat and put them in her room, including photos of us together and a book she made me for my 20th birthday.
I texted her on the 13th of October asking if she wanted to talk about shit, and she replied "Yeah", she asked me when I was free and I said, Wednesday, Thursday or Sunday, and she then said shes busy all 3 of those days (and shes never usually busy). I then said: "Bummer, another time then".
I didn't text her until today (the 19th of October) because there was an Earthquake today and all I said was "Hey u ok?".
I don't know what to do at this point, I know im super over analysing everything but I can't help it. I've kept busy with friends but its just not the same not being with her. I even had $3000 saved up towards an engagement ring and now I feel like she will never speak to me again.
What do I do now? I've tried no contact but I just blew it today because I was worried about the earthquake. I need her back in my life and I'll do anything to have her.
HAAAALP!