I'm deformed and it makes it VERY HARD for me to go out and enjoy life because I'm literally STARED AT ALL THE TIME! Well, I wear my hair in a pony tail almost everyday and it seems to me that everybody is copying my hairstyle. *Except men and girls/women with short hair*. I feel like people are copying my hairstyle to annoy me and because they're trying to make fun of me. I even see celebs sporting my hairstyle. Now, I don't wear my hair in a ponytail. I have 3 theories as to how they're (the people who have never seen me) seeing my hairstyle.
1. They know of some secret website with photos of me, when I'm rarely out (candid-- people taking pictures of me with their cell phones).
2. Widespread trend: here locally where I live has sparked a trend and it's grown to other states.
3. People can see me in thin air (apparition).
My MAIN problem is-- I feel very responsible as to why people are upset/sad and mad. I feel like EVERYONE male or female could see my deformed/VERY flawed face in their mother's womb(stomach) when they were fetus'.
I feel guilty whenever I have fun-- because I am always smiling/happy despite my situation. I never see anyone ever smiling or laughing. I'm afraid that when the world ends everyone is going to stare/torture and humiliate me.
Have YOU ever saw a girl with a very messed up/deformed face? Would you ever blame someone for the way you were feeling? Be truthful!