(this is lengthy but more info is better, right?)
This girl is the second "long" relationship of my young life. I am 19, and I am pretty certain she is the first girl I've ever truly loved (I also lost my virginity to her so my view may be kind of skewed). We went out for 6 months before she broke it off without allowing me any real closure.
It is only in hindsight that I realize my mistakes. I was a bit too clingy. I told her I loved her after a week or two of dating (way too soon, I know), and at times I was too serious about our relationship. I also realize that I allowed us to enter a rut by not doing exciting things and simply hanging out all the time while at college.
Having said that, she played a lot of petty mind games. She ignored me on a few occasions when she was angry, was pretty reserved with her emotions, and rarely complimented me (perhaps due to her Asian upbringing? not to be racist but her parents brought her up speaking Cantonese and whatnot).
Having said that. When she did compliment me, they were some of the most heartfelt compliments I've ever received. And after she told me she love me, after 4 long months... it was something almost indescribable for me - I was the first person she ever openly said "I love you" to in a romantic sense. Perhaps it was basic human psychology, but hearing those words and those compliments was incredible. Not to mention I was infatuated with everything about this girl, her mannerisms, her sight, even her scent.
Almost six months into the relationship she asked for a week-long break, and before the break even finished, she wanted to break up. This was devastating because for the entire week I reflected on how to personally mature and make the relationship work well. I felt like (and still feel like) with this knowledge I could/can make it work. I just don't know how to prove it to her.
Having said that... our only interaction has been saying "hi" in the hallway, and a couple conversations online. I invite her for some ice cream at the end of the semester, but she refused, saying that she didn't want to do anything until next semester. (now we are on winter break).
What breaks my heart is that on her facebook and tumblr she posts depressing things. She acts like all of her romances have hurt her and that she is emotionally injured. I once asked her if I ever hurt her - she said "no" but I have no idea if that's true. She also won't grant me true closure. She refuses to tell me what went wrong, what I did wrong, and why it ended.
I know. I'm a chump who should move on. It seems like she practically has. From what you've read, is there a glimmer of a chance that next semester we can make it work? Or should I just move on? Also - how can I move on from what I'm pretty certain is indeed my first true love?