Hi all,
Well How do i explain this..........
I met him two and half years ago through friends. I instantly wanted to get to know him better and doing this was quiet easy as we were both working on a community project together. Overtime we have become very good friends and now do a lot of community work together. Throughout these 2 and half years, what started as a crush has grown much deeper. So does he feel the same?
He knows how i feel about him and I'm not sure he feels the same way.
We have been on a hand full of casual dates, that have never always seemed like a date to myself as we end up talking about many issues relating to the community projects we do together.He is very busy person with the different community work and has concentrated on his career and is now doing well for himself, so this does not leave much time to go on dates. So are they dates?
He is a very shy when it comes to having a relationship, and appears to have little experience. No one knows of him having a serious relationship. We have never been intimate with each other and my guess would be that he has little experience, not that i find this a problem. But does he ? as i have a child already. It took him a long time to tell me that he likes me, and to ask me out. This has took a long time and this is why I'm left feeling confused, as every time we tell each other how we feel after wards he always seems withdrawn. This has caused many arguments between us because i struggle to understand how you can tell someone you "love" them and then appear to avoid contact with them for days.
The people around us constantly make jokes about us, the usuals whens the wedding, and i have a hat ready ect. This makes me, and I'm sure it does him too, feel very uneasy and embarrassed. As we have never declared a relationship between us its just the "atmosphere" we create apparently.
I have tried to pull myself away from him several times before, but every time i do he just keeps making more contact relating to community work. Is this his way of trying to keep it going or is he just scared of losing a good friend? Recently i have pulled out of helping him with a work situation (involving a hearing) as the notes that was given to me by himself from his company, made him out to be a compulsive liar. I sent an email to him stating that i could not attend this meeting with him after reading the notes as i was left feeling confused about his character, as he has lied to me in the past. Since then he seems to constantly be ringing or texting with what i would call none important issues relating to community work. And making a conversation from this.
I love him very much and find it difficult to understand if he feels the same or if all the contact is just to keep a friendship between us.