Okay well last Monday me and my boyfriend of over a year broke up. We had a baby together 2 months go. Well I have horrible PPD and for the past month all we did was fight, i horrible to him and Monday it got worse, I let my anger get the best of me and hit him. He told me it was over for good but I miss him so much and ive learned to control myself, of course he doesn't believe it and I don't blame him. I know he loves and misses me. My family has been trying to help me convince him to please try and talk to me about it. Finally yesterday he texted me with me texting him and asked how I was doing. Then we joked around for a bit and he went back to work. An hour later I told him I missed him then he says "we're not going to be able to be friends right bow huh?" i said "yea we can. I just wanted to tell you that I missed you. Do you miss me at all?" he says "yes I do, that's why I texted you". We talk for a while then tells me just because we're friends doesn't change anything. So I ask of there was another chance for us in the future. He said maybe but as of right now he doesn't see it. (ugh).
Well this morning I texted him and asked if he was over me so I can just move on cause it's not fair for me to sit here and just hurt to. He goes "yeah just move on, I'm sure you met someone last night, that's fine". I'm sure he did not mean that at all by the way it sounded. But the question is, what is he trying to do? It's like he wants me to hurt. He doesn't want to try again now yet he doesn't want me to get over him? I don't understand :/. I explained to him that I'm changing and I want to to think about us again for a while and he never replied back :/.
Please no rude comments. I realized what I did wrong