Hi,
I have a problem with my ex. I can't get over her. As I said in one of my post we live in the same apartment in college and it's very hard for me. I have been trying desperately to get her back, and now I'm just trying to move on which is also hard for me right now. However, I feel that I am making some progress. Time does help the healing process, and now I feel WAY BETTER than before.
I even tried to be friend with her. My problem right now is that I sometimes get this shift in emotion. I will be able to spend some time without thinking about, but once I hear her voice everything will change and I will want to talk to her.
What happened today it's that my friend told me how he saw her dancing at a party with this one guy that know. F**** my emotions got on the way and I had to call her. I did ask her if she could come back. Of course she said she can't, and then I asked her if I missed her sometimes. She said I don't really want to know and when I insisted to know she said that she does not really miss me.
Since we live together I have noticed that her roommate tents to ignore me, and I also overheard a conversation. For some reason I mentioned that to her. Of course she acted like she did not know what I was talking. I started telling her how I couldn't believe she would talk bad things about me to her friends and such and such and she hung up on me. Gosh I messed up. Before that, this weekend we were able to talk to each other as normal people, like friends. I hate to know she is pissed at me for some reason.
She did tell me several times that she can't change her mind overnight and that it will take time for her to maybe feel the same way she used to. I understand that I need to stop talking about it; and I seriously want to stop begging for her to come back or anything. I just want to get over it. I want to forget about her. I want to move on. I feel like I am stuck here because I will have fun outside, but when I get in my room everything changes.
I need help about how to deal with this. I'm exhausted. Luckily we only have 3 more weeks in this apartment. I know that more I try more I am pushing her away. She is probably far gone by now. She used to be the one to initiate contact, but now because of my desperate moves to get her back she has been keeping her distance.
Thank you,