Many will probally find this hard to believe, I still have so many mixed emotions about this situation. My man of 16 years, which we lived together through good and bad, was diagnosed with lung cancer March 4th, we were devasted but we looked to the future, although the cancer had spread to all his organs, we still anticipated we would have 18 months. So after 7 weeks of radiation, 1 cycle of chemo, we were told he has 4-8 weeks left to live. Well when his daughter found out the final numbers, she returned from Texas, only to push me to the side, and he allowed it, he has completely shut me out, and treats me with no respect. This was very difficult for me and his family to understand as he has now shut them out also, but as the days have gone on, you do a lot of soul searching, and talking with god, and I am finally at peace, as I know I was here for him and took care of him, and feel content with moving on with my life. Is my heart still broken? yes, but I know time heals all wounds, and I do wish him well and may he have a painfree departure from this world, I am a true believer in that we all get judged when we move on, and the decisions he has made he will take with him. I always believed in my heart, even knowing he was married 3 different times, and even after I read all the divorce papers, that he truely loved me, and would never hurt me in such a manner, but I was wrong. But looking to my future, I will not allow my heart to control, this time around I will have my eyes open also, granted I'm 49 with two grown daughters from a previous marriage, but I feel I'm a very attractive woman yet with a lot of life and a lot of differnet intrests, and that maybe I wll find someone who wants to be a lover and friend forever.