Blocked on Facebook finally, but it feels like square one...

[thevsilent]

I don't know how the hell to move on, my brain/heart isn't allowing it, and it sucks. You would think that after all this, I would just come to terms with her being gone forever, but a part of me hopes one day she will return, and that isn't healthy at all!

[DannyH]

yeah that whole hope thing is a pita. What I have been doing is keeping myself busy with things that keep me focused. Guitar, gaming, and some mma classes. Just find what you like to do and do them force yourself if you have to. After awhile it will all come together

[thevsilent]

My whole fear is that nobody will get me like she did, I am a very weird person, and have social problems, for some reason it just clicked with her. I just shit all over her, and I really wish I wouldn't have, I just want her to know how completely sorry I was for being a asshole, for saying some of the things I said. I just hope in time she will realize I wasn't that evil, I don't want her to hate me forever. There was good and then there was bad, I just don't want her to remember me as the bad.