Hey to all of you!
I appreciate it very much that you all care enough for me to want me to get better... each of you has their own opinions on how I should do that... and I respect that... and I am grateful for any new strategy I learn...
Hurtsoul, thanks so much for looking out for me here...
Wakeup, you're trying to help, thank you, but the thing is you only know what I do post here and not what I do when I do not post here. I post here in my weakest hours and when I feel worst. When I feel I can't bear the pain any more. Of course I know what's best for me and I am not an emotional cripple... I am recovering from some big losses in my life, that's all. And I know exactly what I have to do to get better, but sometimes things get rough and too much, I feel overwhelmed and I come and post here to find some comfort in my darkest hours. I find your opinion interesting, you have some good ideas, but please respect that there are boundaries no one should cross. One of this boundaries is telling someone that he doesn't know what it's best for themselves especially when you know so little of this person and only the weakest parts. Please accept that.Originally Posted by Wakeup
It's harder the other way round. I mean it's not hard to choose not to be affected by others thoughts and opinions, but it's hard to really be not affected by them. Still working at that. But getting better.Originally Posted by Wakeup
Mathias, have you even read my thread?Originally Posted by Mathias
You're right when I come here to post about how I feel I am usually 100% emotional and in bad condition. As I said before I come here in my darkest hours to find some comfort. But I am not 100% emotion all the time. I don't come here when I know exactly what I have to do and manage to do it. I only come here and write about myself when I don't manage to do what is best for me, when something bad happens and I lose all hope. And then I come here to write it off my chest and I do not expect anybody to save me... a nice word and a hug are enough, to be heard and not to feel alone in my pain, these are the things that help in moments like this.Originally Posted by Mathias
I will come here again to moan about how it's not getting better when I feel like it. I believe that's one of the things this forum is for. Some may come here to only find advice like some of you like to give it, but I also and mainly come here to "write off" my feelings when I am really down and feel hopeless. I appreciate any new strategy I find here that I haven't known before. But I don't like being patronized because of that small window through which you see me.
I am more than just pain and despair and anger and hopelessness. I am a whole person who made some bad life and love choices and now has to get over the consequences. I have a lot of life experience and I know exactly what to do. As most of us do. But I am human and sometimes I slip, my emotions "override" me and I come here to share my pain, cry out my feelings. I do not force anybody to read my posts. You can stay way from my threads if you don't like the way I cope with my situation and the way I heal. It's not the linear way you Wakeup would love anybody to have. It's ups and downs. I come here to share my downs because this is a broken hearts forum.
Yes, usually when I post about my stuff it is about pure emotion. Emotions I need to let out and get over with. And yes I am coming from a broken heart. The love of my life left me which was something I would never even have thought of. Yes, I do want to feel better. One of the actions I set is to come here and write when I feel lowest or have no hope any more. Of course I am the only one who can pick myself up. And that's what I am doing at the moment. In my way.Originally Posted by Jenswaiting
If it's not okay to come here to post when you feel worst then please tell me and I will find somewhere else to go.
Thank you all again,
Kyeema
PS. It's half past midnight here in Austria and I have to attend a funeral later - so good night to all of you!