Did you google? You should join an alternate lifestyle dating site or forum board and learn a thing or two about your personal fetish and then go get yurself "ruined" with someone willing.
I'm glad to see you've stopped blaming women in general for You not finding a compatible partner that fits both your wants and needs.
What you want is not impossible to find.
Last edited by Wakeup; 26-08-11 at 09:30 AM.
Reason: I have discovered I have a keyboard problem.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion