help.......broken

[trent93]

So this is how this goes.

I was totally happy and just set in life, i was in love with the most beautiful girl that my eyes have ever laid on. She made me happy when i had the worst days, we were together for 3 years....

So a new week starts and i tell her i got plans on friday for us to just have a great day together, i booked off work, i got tickets for a fairy ride out to an island where we were going to have a picnic on the beach and just had multiple things planned... The thursday night before shes acting weird all of a sudden and she tells me that she cant hang out with me until after and that she told me that, i get frustrated because she didnt tell me that and i wouldnt have booked an entire day of work off.

Well i bite the bullet on the tickets and all the stuff i bought, she finally comes to my house around 7 at night and comes in and is very spacious from me no hug no kiss nothing, we rent sum movies i get her her favourite food for dinner. She just keeps spacing away from me. Then soon she says she has to leave, i go to walk her to her car and shes walking feet ahead of me and i get upset at that, this just leads to a fight about little things, and she says that she needs space away from me....it killed me....

so then it went weeks she didnt answer my phone calls or anything leaving me in the dark about anything that our relationship is or was, after about a month after the fight she finally agrees to talk to me and meet me in person, we talk about everything that happened and all the problems and she says she wants to work it out and get back to where we were. I leave that day with a smile on my face and a jump in my step.

days followed and i find out that she is dating some other guy, i call her up and she says that she is dating sumone else to get over me. She lied about when she met him to me, and i find out that she was going on dates while i was still with her. It broke my heart to realize that i lost this amazing girl, sumone i love with my entire heart, it kills me. She hasnt talked to me since and she is still with that guy.

Its been over a year since this has happened to me, every night i cry, and ever day from the time i awake to the time i fall asleep i hurt. Everything i do reminds me of her and no matter where i go i see her face, and wish to hold her hand again. Im at a loss to what i can do to smile again and feel that im not worthless in this life.....before anyone says keep busy hang with friends and family etc. Ive done it all, i dont know what to do anymore and frankly it just makes each and ever day more hard to get through, i feel lost and alone.

Within a year i had everything with a smile that stretched my face till it hurt, to a frown and years.

[searock]

Stop focusing so much on her. She is far back in the past, not part of your life anymore. Concentrate on the present: your job, your friends, your hobbies. Go out, meet new people. Keep yourself busy.

[cathy22]

I realize you hurt, and it's hard for you to see outside of your pain right now, but this girl might actually be doing you a favor. You don't need someone like this in your life. Take time for yourself now.

[Can3000]

I understand how you feel. I've been there...several times by the same girl. So, what I'm trying to say is, you don't want her back even if she wanted to come back. In the 11 years together, she walked out on me 3 times. Hurt like hell the first two times. Why stick around after the first time? Well, the answer to that is easy - you're feeling it. Why stick around after the second time? You find every excuse b/c you want to be with her - mine was, people can change. I've changed my number so there won't be a third. If there's one regret, it's taking her back the 1st time.