Okay, so I am in dire need of serious advice. I have been a total failure at love all my life. Not only have I not had a good relationship before, I haven't really had a relationship or even a first date. All that has ever happened is I become interested in someone, take a couple weeks/months to be with them and get to know them, and confess just to get rejected on the spot. This same cycle must have repeated 3 times now, and I fear it is going to happen again. I try to learn from past failures but it isn't working. Now, here I am, in love again, and I just don't know if I can trust myself to do it right anymore. All I want is to finally love and be loved in return, to have someone who I can feel at peace with, someone who I can cuddle with and comfort, what could be so hard about that? What am I doing wrong!? Please, tell me what to do before I go and have my heart broken again!
(Okay, so I needed to take a chill pill while I was writing this and didn't take enough time to ask myself what I really should be asking. Not that this post doesn't have any value per se, you could call this an example of what I become during one of my unstable, fearful moments, and it also still pretty accurately describes my past rejections.)
(I suppose I should have provided a little more detail as well, now that I go back to read the Guidelines section. If it really helps, I'm a 17 year old male and a junior in high school. I currently think I'm beginning to fall in love with a 14-15 year old freshman girl from Marching Band. I've known her for a couple months now, but have only recently come to fully realize my true feelings. I'm falling in love with her because she is a fun person to be with and I generally feel carefree when I'm around her. The main problem is, I don't know whether she shares my feelings or not, how fast or slow I should go, and what "signs" are in my head or not. Therefore, I am not confident about just telling her how I feel because I have such an overwhelming fear of rejection after having to suffer through such hell three times before, and need a little bit of a confidence boost in that area. I hope this adds a little more to the mush I originally posted =/ )