I met a girl online 5 weeks ago. We hit it off immediately, we make each other laugh and have since developed into a sexual relationship.
She currently lives with he ex still (they live separate lives and he has found someone new) and her son. They are together for the sake of the son and she will move out once she is in a position to do so. She is also juggling jobs and her workload is hectic (6 days a week) My situation is alot different. I work shifts, have a lot of time on my own as I live on my own and my daughter stays once a week with me.
Over the last few weeks we have gone out of our way to see each other and have sent 50+ texts per day. I announced first that I loved her and slowly her feelings developed for me and she now says it first without me prompting her. We both miss each other terribly when not together, look forward to the next time we are together, the sex is great, she has met my daughter and whatever we do is wonderful. I couldnt be any happier and I feel she thinks the same. I jokingly have asked her to marry me (and she has to me) and we have said it could happen. We have planned some events in the future and all is great.
However for the last 5 days there has been a change and I can't help but thinking it will all end soon. She has taken on a new job which is shattering her and making seeing each other rather difficult. She has also started to take the birth control pill and the morning after pill and I believe this is making her hormonal. I used to get texts from her throughout the day but her new job is meaning I get one (although she does ring me for 5 mins on her lunch break). I have told her I love her at least 5 times over the last 5 days and only once has she replied those words to me. I have questioned this and she says sorry she is just tired. She also mentioned that she is going to an event with her ex and the son next month and I felt a little hurt that it wasnt me going.
I also told her I lack self confidence and am insecure as I think she is in a different league to me. I told her that what we have is amazing and almost to be goo d to be true and somedays I just fear it will end. She said if I feel like this then it will and I should stop, but at the moment she hasnt told me it is doing her head in. I have asked her outright if everything is ok and her reply is that I worry too much.
I do not know how to be more relaxed as since last week her texts have dried up, they are not as loving as they were, we have no immediate plans to see each other, she has these days planned with her ex and she is not telling me she loves me - she assures me it is just her job/tiredness and maybe the pills, but me being me thinks something deeper.