Alright I'm stepping out of a 7 year relationship. My insecurities and suspiscions are starting to eat away at me and I dont know what to do. Am i doing the write thing? What should I do?
OK I tried. Im unemployed, my wife works in a hospital as a Registered Nurse. So everyday shes going to work, im thinking of the successful men shes around, like doctors and the patients that she deal with, that can actually afford healthcare. Im thinking of all the catheters that she has to put in. All the penis encounters. Wondering if her nursing experience devaluates her perception of me as a man. You never know. Fact remains shes going to be exposed packages that are bigger then mine and that hurts because were not that sexually active.
I feel as though she gives me reasons to think she is cheating or either thinking about cheating. For example. When i tell her about my insecurities, i get called a psycho. As my insecurities grow, I try to discuss them with her but I dont feel as though im getting any help or advise from her. It feels as though she doesnt care anymore.
All i have to say is hun, im detecting cheating symptom (red flags) in this relationship, we need to address them and work on them because I really care about you. she tells me stuff like," Dr.Phillius i can't take this anymore! This is getting out of hand! Everyday Dr.Phillius?!" I gave her a bag with an Iphone, KY Jelly spray, and 12 condoms for valentines day. Mind you, her parents were out of the country and her sister was working a late shift so we had the house to ourselves for the 2 hours that i was there and prolly more had her sister decided to visit her boyfriend. She wasnt even trying to get me to call out. She actually took the phone out, and was asking me, who has never had a cellphone in his life, to fix her clock while i tried so hard to hide my emotions. I felt neglected. Undesired. And wondered if she had plans, for another guy after i left. I got no sex. I eventually ended up almost cheating on her with a female from school. I told her how i felt and why i did it and that i didnt intend to have sex with her but to show her that there are women out there that want to make me happy. I even tried to break up with her then and there, but I took her back and we ended up having make-up sex on a park bench. Now when i tell her i fear shell try to get back at me, she tells me i deserve to be cheated on. But its killing me. I actually have chest pains. Love actually hurts. last year i weight 238 now i weight 209.
HELP: Can someone please tell me how im supposed to feel?
How do i get over my insecurities.
How was I supposed to get her to help me?
Your advise is greatly appreciated.